God gave me friends, so that i would know my faults, so that i can learn to change, to be better to always be improving.

He gave me friends so that i would learn to be happy, to know my good points, to realise that i have talents that i can use.

He gave me friends so i could learn how to live right, how to accept, how to appreciate, how to stop judging and look at the good side of everything.

He gave me friends so i could experience sitting at the oddest places with nothing much and yet have the time of my life in heart and in spirit through words and emotions.

He gave me friends to know that i am never alone.

i think im starting to come to terms with the fact that i don't mean half of what most of my friends mean to me. and its kinda because i tend to go overboard in everything that i do. im learning to change, and learning to understand that honesty is good but my way of thinking has to change.

i need to thank and pay attention to people who bother to waste their time to be with me, who actually want to be by my side, instead of pushing them away because i know i do. i never realised how much they mean to me, and now i do and i wish i could give them the world.

that includes my family, who are always taken for granted and its just wrong because i love them so much but i cant seem to express it. but i will try (:

and i have lit to do woohoo i shall do what i do best: procrastinate

im hungry but no one really cares

oh and i realise blogging makes me sound like a really emo serioius person with teenage problems and like inner dilemmas and blabla OMG HAHAHHAHA so odd