Warning: this post will not make sense to those outside my head.

So it's like this. The world doesn't rotate the way you want it to, it doesn't work the way you planned it to so you gotta live with it and it's alright if you view it from the big picture but when it happens its freaking hard to cope with. When a friend decides something it's not your freaking business and yet it's your freaking business because it's your friend who is deciding and i feel like SCREAMING at her and strangling her and just kicking her ass multiple times and telling her to 'wake up' and realise that there is a GOD and that he is THERE and he LOVES you and WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS WHY ARE YOU SAYING THIS because IT'S NOT TRUE i know you are not what you claim you are, what you are close to bragging about so shut up and listen to yourself, listen to how ridiculous you sound and how much it's hurting me and driving me up these white walls of mine. i don't know why your doing this and i don't disapprove of it GENERALLY but i disapprove of it when you do it because it's you and friends are not biodegradable

on a lighter note, it is friday and on sunday i get to be with my one and only (haha music! what were you thinking, amanda?).

oh well.

there was something else i wanted to rant about but it all seems so unimportant which means it wasnt important in the first place. i feel like writing a story. haha but you know how non-commited i am. ah well. they shall stay fun and fluffy in my head.

i want to write i want to write i want to write like you do i want to write like you do i want to write forever

beat it!

im listening to the live tracks off falloutboy's LIVE album (yes thank you for the present) and they sound really good which urges me to ask "what happened on 3rd march 2006?" i think that was when they came to singapore. anyway, other than pete throwing his bass and getting his shirt ripped off by screaming fan girls with raging hormones (i was standing FAR away so haha) it wasn't very good. ah but who am i to judge when i am a mere one-concert-goner. haha. yes.

ooo. patrick is singing I Wite Sings Not Tragedies. woohoo.

anyway, i would like to say that opening my email continues creeping me out thanks to all those scary spam emails in my junkmail (which i do not open) which is quite unnerving since i am freaked out by the titles alone. how am i to last in this world of deception?

and by the way amanda, the time traveller's wife is entertaining but there are far too many sex scenes and vulgarities which are somewhat disturbing for me.

to karyn: its this church camp that i go to, to get the whole level of sec 3 kids to get ready for the process of comfirmation which is like us going through this occasion thing where we are comfirmed into the church and stuff. yea. honestly, i am sad to say i am lousy at explaining this.

to joy: thank you joy!!! im quite sad u couldnt come for the party(pronounced: partehhh), i havent seen ur face since the prehistoric days.

to brigid: thank you!! woohoo. haha.

falloutboy has strange booming sounds throughout their live performances. haha i have realised that i really really really love their old song "Saturday" which means i loved the old them which doesnt really mean anything does it? okay.

www.purevolume.com/lookatluke check this out, i love these kids. :)