I'm back for now.

Three days after christmas and five days til the dreaded school year. You know i would love to say that i look forward to it, just for the sake of being different, but i don't. So i can't lie. I really don't want to go back. The reasons are obvious: Boring (same routine), Pointless (study to study), Totally Unnecessary In the Long Run (hey st peter! But i got an A for math!).

The only reason why i do not resort to skipping is that it's wayyy too much trouble for me and my family and the school and the ministry and the world. And that school seems to be the only outlet for social interaction (which means increased chance of acutally doing some good).

Anyway, Christmas was good. Thanks for the presents people! Though i must say, i was watching christmas shows on the television and have come to the the conclusion that the 25th of dec has become WAAAAYYY too commercialised. isn't the whole santa and reindeer thing getting old? Hello? WHO'S BIRTHDAY IS IT? my dad was telling me and my brother a story about how people were partying and having fun and making noise on christmas and there's this knock on the door but no one hears it and they all just keep partying. and they don't realise that it's the birthday of Jesus but he wasn't let in.

and how many christmas songs are actually meaningful? most are about santa and rudolf the red nose reindeer. pleasant, but lacking in everything that has got to do with the occasion. Oh well.

I won't be back for a long time.

HAHA did Noel G. from Oasis slam the jonas brothers?

these lines, so well reharsed. tongue-tied and over loaded. you never noticed.

i am happy to say i really really love The Academy Is 's new sound, incredibly radio friendly but i love it anyway. it's very nice :) and simple. that's music i guess.

i like how the beginning of their song About A Girl sounds like a FireFight song. haha. anyway.

i have exams coming up so

WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING HERE.

say cheese.

hello!

On sunday, three quarters of Look At Luke (Mainly me, jas and manda) went to review the almost entire local scene there was and i have come to the conclusion:

It's really not as bad as you expect, but not as good as you wished.

yea. i fell in love with the vocalist from Armchair Critic on that day! haha. okok i didnt really like swoon over him and run up to him and offer him a plastic rose but i kept commenting on how cute he was when he sang cos he rolled his eyes and it was cute. and then jas and amanda kept teasing me. uh huh. OKAY anyway, the Fire Fight were the best to me that night, really really good music. yay.

okay. so then just now i was searching for Fire Fight's myspace (www.myspace.com/thefirefightsg) and it took me a really long time to find and i went to all the wrong sites. ANYWAY, the joshua guy from fire fight is from a vacant affair too! how cool is that man. woo.

okay. so i shall continue on my homework and then proceed to make look at luke better than firefight.

ps: electrico is so cool! they're like the seniors of singapore rock!

i AM BACK

I found this very cool quiz from Joy's blog so i shall do it. it is possibly the most interesting quiz thing ive seen.

It’s harder than it looks! Copy and paste to your own journal, erase my answers, and add your own.Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places, names &/or objects, but nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same 1st initial. You CAN’T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

My name starts with a B
1) 4 LETTER WORD: Bees
2) BOY NAME: Ben
3) GIRL NAME: Beatrice! woohoo i feel smart.
4) OCCUPATION: Box ghost! haha nono um bus driver.
5) A COLOR: BLUEEEEEEE
6) SOMETHING YOU WEAR: Blouses!
7) BEVERAGE: Big cuppa coffee
8)FOOD: Burgerrrrrrrrrrrrs.
9) SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: BATHTUB! haha
10) A PLACE: Bishan
11) REASON FOR BEING LATE: Bad time estimation
12) SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: BOOO!

everyone should do this.

hello again

it's a bit narcisstic isnt it? to have your own website filled with your own thoughts. yea but aren't we all...

so it's almost nine in the (afternoon!) morning on a SUNDAY and i woke up at 7.20 and wondered why my mum didnt wake me like she does every sunday morning so we can attend 7.30 mass together so then i just lay there pissed and abondoned and pissed then i got up and made my bed and ate breakfast and realised that i have nothing to do except waste my brain on the computer. so here i am, wasting my brain.

i might be going to jas's house today to jam hopefully it'll cheer me up.anyway, i dunno if i wanna go for singfest. i mean there is jason mraz, panic, one republic and jamie scott that i wouldnt mind seeing but then isit worth 200 bucks? :(

i dunnooooooo.

Warning: this post will not make sense to those outside my head.

So it's like this. The world doesn't rotate the way you want it to, it doesn't work the way you planned it to so you gotta live with it and it's alright if you view it from the big picture but when it happens its freaking hard to cope with. When a friend decides something it's not your freaking business and yet it's your freaking business because it's your friend who is deciding and i feel like SCREAMING at her and strangling her and just kicking her ass multiple times and telling her to 'wake up' and realise that there is a GOD and that he is THERE and he LOVES you and WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS WHY ARE YOU SAYING THIS because IT'S NOT TRUE i know you are not what you claim you are, what you are close to bragging about so shut up and listen to yourself, listen to how ridiculous you sound and how much it's hurting me and driving me up these white walls of mine. i don't know why your doing this and i don't disapprove of it GENERALLY but i disapprove of it when you do it because it's you and friends are not biodegradable

on a lighter note, it is friday and on sunday i get to be with my one and only (haha music! what were you thinking, amanda?).

oh well.

there was something else i wanted to rant about but it all seems so unimportant which means it wasnt important in the first place. i feel like writing a story. haha but you know how non-commited i am. ah well. they shall stay fun and fluffy in my head.

i want to write i want to write i want to write like you do i want to write like you do i want to write forever

beat it!

im listening to the live tracks off falloutboy's LIVE album (yes thank you for the present) and they sound really good which urges me to ask "what happened on 3rd march 2006?" i think that was when they came to singapore. anyway, other than pete throwing his bass and getting his shirt ripped off by screaming fan girls with raging hormones (i was standing FAR away so haha) it wasn't very good. ah but who am i to judge when i am a mere one-concert-goner. haha. yes.

ooo. patrick is singing I Wite Sings Not Tragedies. woohoo.

anyway, i would like to say that opening my email continues creeping me out thanks to all those scary spam emails in my junkmail (which i do not open) which is quite unnerving since i am freaked out by the titles alone. how am i to last in this world of deception?

and by the way amanda, the time traveller's wife is entertaining but there are far too many sex scenes and vulgarities which are somewhat disturbing for me.

to karyn: its this church camp that i go to, to get the whole level of sec 3 kids to get ready for the process of comfirmation which is like us going through this occasion thing where we are comfirmed into the church and stuff. yea. honestly, i am sad to say i am lousy at explaining this.

to joy: thank you joy!!! im quite sad u couldnt come for the party(pronounced: partehhh), i havent seen ur face since the prehistoric days.

to brigid: thank you!! woohoo. haha.

falloutboy has strange booming sounds throughout their live performances. haha i have realised that i really really really love their old song "Saturday" which means i loved the old them which doesnt really mean anything does it? okay.

www.purevolume.com/lookatluke check this out, i love these kids. :)

the sky...

hello.

so recently i came back from comfirmation camp. an enriching experience, and if i had gone in and come out being stubborn, nothing would have changed, but thankfully i tried my best to go in with an open mind and also with the help of the oh so enthusiastic Heleyna who was very very excited about camp, i think i've learnt something and from now on i am going to close my eyes and fall back and let the God do what he may, catch me or not.

last night before i slept, i worried about and thought about a friend and then i told my self there was nothing i could do (Cept pray for her) and then i sleep and end up DREAMING about it!

im so lazy. i have nothing better to do nowadays. oh well.

my party's coming up but i don't care that im growing older, its the FRIENDS that i cant wait to say and smile with! yipee. couldn't ask for me.

good news! i am a professional at cooking eggs in a tiny frying pan now.

This does not panic my disco! -amanda

youdon'thavetoworryyoudont

helloooooooo.

it's the second week of holidays and i have done nothing so far that is significant. i have camp in a few days and am dreading it. but, on a positive note, i am going ice skating with my friends this week. so yay. haha.

gahh.

we got to find a way.

so i had no intention of blogging but since S and A did (haha ABBRIEVATIONS) and well J didnt, but oh well, i shall blog too. oh and also because William Beckett's voice is so beautiful (like a choir of angels!)

so recently i have been jamming, not alot, but more then usual. at least that't what J did. and i love jamming. love love. and now since we are a complete band, thanks to S, we are complete and i feel professional and so much smarter. haha ok.

and so i would like to say THANK YOU A, J, AND S FOR EXISTING, because without you guys, i would be a loser, unlike now when i am a loser with a band.

so thank you.

and to S, no need to apologize about the cable and the late coming thing because A was late too, and all of us made dents so sorry J! :D

altho i shud apologize for being such a WEIRD, QUEER LITTLE ASS HOLE who says and does weird things. :( and embarasses herself repeatedly and does stupid things and is disrespectful to J's parents and eating oreo with bread.

but THANK YOU THANK YOU for jamming together!

LONG LIVE LAL! i hope i can become better friends with you guys (S esp since i am very shy infront of you, i know it may not seem it but i AM!) and also write better songs and become sucessful with you ppl AND LIVE MY LIFE MUSICALLY AND HAPPILY.

woohoo.

william beckett's voice is making me high.

but wait that's just too much to ask.

CONGRATS TO DAVID COOK, THE NEWEST AMERICAN IDOL.
he deserves the title! cos hes so cool. hahah and he sings well. and is left handed. and plays guitar. using a left handed guitar. and hes original. and cool.

oh well.

thurday,thursday,thursday. i have never realised how hard it is to type "thursday". until now.

yknw what. there something about school holidays that just pisses me off. because for most people who go to school, the name is just a stupid facade. school holidays arent exactly holidays. not even close. its just false hope. yea, FALSE HOPE. delude all the young people out there into thinking salvation is in days when WE ALL KNOW ITS NOT. because we all have to go back to that dreaded place.

"it's the school holidays, but you have to come back to school."

gosh, really how hypocritical can you get.

but i get it, the school days arent enough to fit in all of the syllabus. we need to constantly revise in other not to lose touch with our knowledge.

but maybe if the school would STOP MAKING STUPID OCCASIONS WHERE WE SIT AROUND IN THE HALL SMELLING EACH OTHERS SWEAT AND WHISPERING "KILL ME, KILL ME" THEN MAYBE WE COULD ACTUALLY FINISH STUDYING WHATEVER THAT IS NOW RUINING MY HOLIDAY.


sigh.

holidays, holidays. but theres not enough time. for everything. for music, for socializing, for being alone, for watching tv.

and i cant find my earphones. and my usb cable.

which means i have to go get a new USB cable. that sucks.

WHERE IS MY USB CABLE. HOW CAN A WIRE DISAPPEAR. DANG IT.

GAHHHHHH.

i. need. to. find. it.

hello!

see this is why i dont like using the com. things freak me out.

i attached earphones to the com and when it was starting up a weird wooshing sound was heard. VERY SCARY.

then my blog keeps having pop ups. once again, VERY SCARY.

and i cant find my camera wire thing.

aiya.

over my head.

im sweating and sweating and feeling like crap and one side of my earphone does not work. did i mention i feel crappy? and im still sweating.

gahh.

i hate phases. well i cant really say i hate, if u think of that as a strong word. i'll say i dislike them, then. not that im going thru one. unless... is it possible to go through a phase where u dislike phases? i dont think this is how you use the word 'phase' properly. im not sure. but what i talking is about those periods of time when someone you know, someone you are concerned about, someone you have good times with, basically a friend, does stuff which makes you frown and shiver. because this isnt the person you befriended right? or am i just being prejudiced. because it's not their fault, its kind of natural right? puberty, dammit. and we all know not many can defeat the forces of puberty, not even artemis fowl. but then what if the phase lasts much longer and then they make mistakes and things go wrong... and its like "that's not you, that's not who you are, what you stand for." but i guess, isnt it them who know best?

oh well. just forget i ever said anything.

lala.

tmr is so undecided.

i cant wait for panic to come. i mean, so far i've been to ONE concert and missed ALOT OF OTHERS so knowing that neither band that have come will come back, so its like SMALL TINY possibilities that bands i like actually come to lil ol singapore (Which i love dearly). so yay panic! whoo hoo.

i feel like playing this computer game i used to play when i was a kid. where's that cd....

hello again

okay maybe im just being prejudiced. haha i cant wait for the twilight movie! ah. looks very fancy from the trailer. edward/robert's fringe is funny. its all upright. very... strange. makes his head look all the more triangular! haha.

I CANT WAIT FOR THE MOVIE.

december 12th! yay.

im gg with viv to see it. cos i promised her. sort of.

yea.

woohoo.

yea.

I needa go practise my piano!

OH NO

OH NO. THE GUY WHO PLAYS JACOB BLACK IS FROM THAT SHARKBOY LAVA GIRL MOVIE.

AND HE HAS FUZZY HAIR.

just beat it!

woohoo!

twilight!

exams are over! time to worry about life.

so things have cropped up and not for the best, i end up spending my sat lazing around with a rubix cube and a nintendo ds. today i shall continue that. i shall make an effort to practise piano tho, and finally bother to plug in the electric guitar and play play play.

yknw holidays are coming and all i got planned is band stuff, sit ups, piano, more band stuff and ......my birthday. i dunno wat i want for my birthday, i guess it doesnt matter. im thinking about having a party, just an excuse to see all the friends i havent seen since last year.

gosh.

and panic! isnt coming. i think. thats so sad.

ahhhhhh!

p.s. shud i get a psp?

Examinations, no celebrations...

the song jasmin posted on a *certain* band's webpage makes me want to cry. and its not because its a sad song. let's just say its not very good.

ANYWAY. i havent blogged in a long time. so here i am. i shud be studying. yknw i wrote half a chapter of chapter 1 of my planned werewolf story and im giving up. talk about perserverance and willpower, woohoo me! blah. computer's creep me out. and i dunno wat to do online. so that means i dont really use the com much. haha. okay. i really dont know what to say.

so how do u do?

yknw the new panic! at the di- no im sorry. the new PANIC AT THE DISCO (without the EXCLAMATION POINT, mind you) album is really funny when u listen to it the first time round. then it gets weird. then mildly entertaining.

then u realise, hey its damn good.

and then u get hooked. then u get The Green Gentleman song running thru ur head every single second.

so my advice for u panic fans, GO GET THE ALBUM! hoho.

eh the com is really creeping me out.

p.s.: i dun think i shud get a psp. its so.... materialistic it seems. to ask for a gadget that i'll throw aside. plus i have alot of other stuff. which i am thankful for. sigh. i shant get it then, i shall be happy with my life.
p.s.s: yknw wat i want? GUITAR STRINGS. and possibly a new guitar. cos my guitar is so hard to tune. the strings keep snapping. i know, i know its cos im lousy at guitar restringing! its not my fault i wasnt born with this talent.
p.s.s.s: anyone wants to restring it for me?
p.s.s.s.s: for free! im not charging you!
p.s.s.s.s.s: blah. actually ive got nothing to say. jus wanted to type all that 's's and full stops. its really hard yknw. takes alot outta you.

haha I AM ALIIIIIIIVE.

I AM ALIIIVE!

thats right! yeah. yknw i really dont see a reason why i have a blog. other than it being a platform for amanda to shamlessly advertise her blog, it doesnt really serve much of a purpose. well yea cos i havent been blogging much. but it because i have nothing to say. which is really annoying since i WANT to have something to say. since i need to write it down for important purposes such as my...

CAREER! MY FUTURE! MY LIFE!

well okay i dont think its THAT serious. or maybe it is. oh gosh. yknw i hate the smell of blood? all metal-y and gross? makes me feel super nauseus(i really cant spell this). so that really rules out me being a doctor. or a surgeon. haha same thing. and i dont think i'll be a scientist. honestly? what do scientists do? they experiment and stuff right?ohhh. realisation seeps in. anyway i'd never be a scientists. i cant do experiments. cos its like "OOOO FUN!" at first then when i actually start cutting up that potato i really cant be bothered anymore and it ends up all fat and funny looking. and then i get critisized and then i get fed up. and then i get bothered that my school's bio lab doesnt have soap.

hey! guess wat? i didnt go to the school on the first day of go-back-to-school-day-after-week-of-holidays. why? cos i am sick. like sore throat and headaches and fever. yknw i can never tell if i have a fever? haha a good doctor i'll make.

yknw im really really really starting to fall in love love love with the show "Veronica Mars". if u start watching it now in the middle of a season i dont think you'll get it cos its like continious and stuff. anyway the latest episode i watched was really really good. it was wat i needed to feed my mood swings. haha. LOGAN AND VERONICA STILL LURVE EACH OTHER! how adorable is that. well not so if you don't know what the heck im talking about. im starting to think that logan looks pretty cute. yknw i was gonna say hes hot and all but in real life hes married so yknw, hes unavailable. yknw so many ppl are marrying so young. but its so cool if they dont get divorced and stuff. yknw? haha NEVERMIND. anyway the storyline for Veronica Mars is really cool i mean you've got like adult troubles + teen romances + sacarstic dialogue + investigative stuff! thats like the greatest show on earth. well not really. haha its pacifying me now tho. ahhhhhh. and i like the theme song. haha i just do.

hey i just blogged quite a lot! and my backbone is hurting. aaaaaand i dont think im gonna update anytime soon. and and. yknw its really really hard writing a song. i mean its easy getting a tune and a song in YOUR HEAD but then when it comes out its all MUSH and RUBBISH and u think about it and u get so annoyed cos its all MUSH and RUBBISH. and then u rewrite it over and over again. blablabla.

yknw i havent practised piano/done my piano theory yet. im gonna flunk all my piano exams!!! GAHH.

yknw the guy who acts as Logan in veronica mars acts as a Vampire dude in Moonlight. yknw i dont think i'll be watching that if they show it on Channel 5. its bad inuf when i get all high on fictional vampires and werewolves in Twilight so. haha.

whooo. unessecary boring rantings.

my back is still aching.

yknw something funny and strange is happening to me in school. im getting very very well acquinted with dawn, heleyna, venetia. like wooshboom. cos yknw the anti social person like me doesnt suddenly become 'close' to ppl i just suddenlt started talking to. i mean viv and jasmin im alrealdy close to and dawn im quite close to cos we go to cat class together. but yknw wat happened? one day we started naming ourselves celebrity names and WHOOSHBOOM we're a clique! so odd. hmm.

haha i cant believe im discussing my social life here. not that its interesting or anything. i havent seen so many friends in such a long time. i wish there werent so many ppl in the world. then it would be easy to keep in contact with people.


arghhhh.

look at luke! woohoo.

okay. i think im done here?

yea.

The city is at war

i came online to put myself into Blink 182 overdrive. ended up doing more than that. my biology is left unstudied; oh no!

and stupid stupid social studies project. so.... unessescary.

and i need to go out. more. i need to talk to those lost friends. i need to stop feeling bad about certain stuff.

oh well.

i would like to learn spanish.

yes yes. i dunno wat to say.

argh why can't my recordings be in wma format? garrhh.

ladeela.

humdedum.

i shall head over to purevolume now.

woah I never meant to brag.

so common tests are over(sort of) and im kind of free. came online to print some tabs and catch up on stuff but im abit exhausted to do anything more than blogging and visiting blogs and printing tabs.

oh well.

so school's been going well i guess. got a few new books to interest me. yknw the computer has something against me, its making me feel busy. because i havent done ALOT. ahhh i think i shall refrain from reading blogs because it would be an overload because i havent read blogs in a very long time.

dang it cbox is dying on me.

computers make me stressed up.

well then good bye. i need to get in touch with alot of lost friends.

gong xi ni!

hello there. so im blogging because i haven't blogged in a long time so naturally this post will be boring. chinese new year is coming and im looking foward to the ang paos. hahaha. and channel 5 shud start showing more recent films instead of reruns, it's getting very toturous. school has started and it was good, i guess. i really can't stand double periods, my attention span does not last that long. most of my classes are fun i guess, i get to sit with jas and mel and with viv in lit and math (and we do talk alot). lala. teachers are pretty nice.

i don't understand WHY i chose a cca that had training on two days. TWO DAYS! plus i have piano lesson. and math remedial for half an hour. like gahhhhhhhhhhhhh. and wat about jamming, huh? and homework. and studying.

maggi and me is on now. i shall go watch it.

eh i have commonwealth to do! and i shall try to do a new chapter for my story.

i'm still here, yo.

so school has started and i just finished camp so thats really why i havent blogged much. also cos ive been playing acoustic guitar alotalot.

camp wasnt good, especially the showering part and the fish pond part and the wardrobe malfunction part. i cried for 2 seconds after the fish pond part because i had FISH POND WATER IN MY SYSTEM and that is not good and i felt like puking and jasmin and vivcecka were shivering and so was i and i was pissed and disoriented and wet, very wet. but i really shouldnt have cried dammit, now my reputation is ruined!! haha. and the wardrobe malfunction shall not be talked about here because it makes me very annoyed. haha and embarassed i guess? but i dont think anyone would remember it.

im happy im back and the camp instructors made the campe worthwhile so yea. they always do. whats funnier than two grown man calling each other ugly and spastic.

and theres this joke that instructor Farhan told us and it goes like this.

Q:What has a HUGEHUGE head and a tinyteeny body and lives in the ocean?
A:And ikan bilis (Cant spell) wearing a helmet.

Q:There was a multi storey carpark and on the top level there is a Harley Davidson(dunno if i spelt this correctly. its a motorbike btw, for those who dont know.) who owns this?
A:The ikan bilis with the helmet.

i was trying to find this intructor's friendster for some photos of my class but i couldnt find, i couldnt only find the frienster profile of this instructor called Cyril and he was incharge of my class's campfire item and he did this bollywood thing. anyway i like his name. cyril. very very fancy. and he's really funny too.

anyway i shall stop talking about camp. doesnt make me feel good. Psych is starting in 45minutes. meanwhile i shall continue with my story thing.

im thinking of writing a story about werewolves! :D:D:D im so annoying.

oh yea! and just IF YOU WANT TO KNOWWW... haha i have a huge scratch on my calf. cos of my imbalancingness. haha but it doesnt hurt infact, everyone kept asking me about it and it took me awhile to realise what they were talking about.

:D

go go go go go i don't wanna know i don't wanna know

It ends tonight.

how cool is this. on a certain whim, ive been playing It Ends Tonight by The All-American Rejects on keyboard and guitar and am now listening to it and then just as i write this post, i realise, hey it DOES END TONIGHT!

the holidays i mean. tomorrow, school starts and i'll be a wandering idiot again. just living through the books... by the books...

The Aviator is showing tonight and as much as i wanna watch it, i cant because it's a school night.so i'll just tape it! haha everyone wins! :D

im really not in the mood to post much, i think i'll write my story thing. i actually came to online to check on my computer, cos the taskbar got pretty messed up and then the whole resolution thing got messed up the last time i used it but then it was okay so i just wanted to check if it was okay now.

so yea, now that my fantasy days of thinking of fictional characters (hahahahaha!) and the regular band practices are over, i shall just say to you people, have a good year and i promise to still be alive by the end of this year. i don't know how im going to last thru camp tho.... but i hope i'll have friends stick by me. friends are the only thing that make school worth and... no theres nothing else. haha.

oh well. this is such a depressing post. i shall go do my story.

and in the night, we'll wish this never ends.