languages will be the death of me.

i think in english, am required to do well in mandarin, i love a korean group who can converse in japanese and i want and need to learn teochew

why so awesome, 동방신기?

to me, saying "im fine" even tho u feel like crap is the nicest thing u could do to a stranger but the worst you could do to a friend

school is killing me. it is boring, the people i've met so far are nice but i cant connect to them at all and it makes me sad. maybe im the problem.but whatever. im not lonely, but im severely bored and its pushing me to the point where im falling for some J2 guy i dont even know HAHA

the love of my life (not really) is coming to town sometime in april/march and so stalking i will go. sorry mum and dad, for all the shame i will eventually cause

"you dont like SNSD?"

"WHAT? are u crazy? what guy wouldnt like snsd!"

men. >:/ how somewhat disappointing.

YAY I HAS POSTED ZIS

I AMZ KYNG


new school year means being with strangers who know nothing about you and those little chances to explode into the real person i am, makes me so happy.

these people make me burst into a smile wihout fail:
-jenn
-mel
-clare
-darrylin
-corinne
-junsu

hello freedom, we meet again

nought but a few glimpses of it
yet
i wonder how will you taste

jj needs rest, all i see is a tired boy under that orangey hair

OH MY.

can u spot junsu and hyukjae?

wow.

anyway. back to school so goodbye blog :)

if theres one benefit to my academic studies commencing a day from now, it is that it might pull me out from dongbang world. because i honestly need to GET OUT IT IS EATING ME ALIIIIIIVE. i am helplessly falling in love with five men from a foreign country who don't even speak english and this is just me among 800 000 fangirls and more? AAAAHHH. anyway, if the world doesnt end in 2012, im considering going to live in korea for awhile and walk along the han river every night.

"are you undergoing puberty?"

HAHA COFFEE PRINCE I LOVE YOU SO MUCH IF ANYONE ASKS, YOU ARE MY FAVORITE SHOW EVER

According to an article that states that according to junsu's mum:
The condition of the bride to be?
-A Christian lady who believes in God.
-A person who can support her husband well in every possible way for his best.
-A person with a good nature.
-If she can play piano well, it will be nice.
-Would be even better if she can play sports well

HAHA I DUNNO WHY I REALLY DONT BUT THIS MADE ME HAPPY (:

anyway how do the dbsk members look after their dogs, breed them, look after the puppies AND be in dbsk? i cant even get a cat cos im studying so WHAT WHAT HOW

OMIGOSH I LOVE THIS. one piece+tvxq= much happiness

am sad at comfirmation that twitter accounts were fake. INTERNET, U MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A FOOL oh well luckily i didnt make a twitter account. on with plans to meet them in person.

Plan D: work in a hotel. which one? all.

am frustrated with the lack of evidence that junsu's and certain suju members' twitters are real. but i am curious as to why the few tweets and why the bad english. and for hankyung's account, why the chinese? for sungmin's, why the japanese? and how come only junsu? poser fans arent THAT detailed... are they? haha. hmm. but shindong's verified account doesnt link any of the other members so it mus be fake...or forgotten? it scares me how some fans actually take the accounts as legit and like talk to them and show them pics. THATS JUST HIGHLY HIGHLY DISTURBING.

Plan C: i need to get a job at the arrival/departure halls of airports.

im amused that the newspaper review did not mention Billy Joe Armstrong mooning us. haha. it is sad to know that i went to a concert that was awesome and would have blown my 14 yearold brains out but that waas then and now im turning 17 and am lacking the ability to appreciate music and all its gimmicks.

isnt it best to be quiet but supportive? mm. i love changmin so much right now. i admire him to the point i think i might change my attitude to the silent but genorous type. (: i am tired. i shall go sleep now.

found a gif (can someone teach me how to upload GIFs on blogs) of dbsk back stripping on their gayo performance. cannot stop staring at it. i want junsu. haha and i noticed that CHANGMIN SIGHS ALL "ARGH DO I REALLY HAVE TO DO THIS?" BEFORE HE DOES IT haha WHY IS HE SO AWESOME

damn you maturity or what i suspect it to be, for making me feel like spending 130 bucks to scream along songs with one of my favorite bands a foolish route to take. and for making me feel that going across the causeway to watch the very first korean group i got into, an unnecessary step to take. why do u make making fun so hard? haha. oh well. appreciating the little things in life make up for it i guess :)

I really really amuse and hate myself. for being this way.

OMG OMG OMG OMG JAEJOONG AND HYUNJOONG IN VANCOUVER

and then going

OMG OMG OMG WHERE IS VANCOUVER

and squealing in amusement at omona comments.

haha okay its in canada im not as lazy as i thought i'd be.

funny thing. i wasnt looking forward to the whole "OMG O LEVEL RESULTS" thing as much as i was looking forward to seeing stars. what the heck do u do with disappointment, i think i've got a hang of but a friend's disappointment never fails to make me realise how low my EQ is. and i hate how education makes people miserable i hate it i hate it and its why i dont take it seriously.

on another note, was reading 8 Questions with Crowd Lu in the newspaper today and he is awesome. i wanna be a uni student and a musician too! :)

cheer up all those who are down. you guys are still awesome.

i wonder what it's like to....

-get jilted at the alter
-be taken away in a golden chariot
-die
-fall asleep right here right now
-learn to love; formally
-give up on relationships without looking back
-fly
-fall in love
-meet dbsk
-find your way home without sight
-have fans
-feel happy at the sight of someone without fail
-be alone in every sense
-talk to God
-get accepted
-discover your limitations
-actually train and hone your talents
-be a better person
-forget everything
-have someone to hold
-stay awake for two whole days without sleep
-drink coffee at 5.24am in the morning
-date 김준수
-find a cure for cancer
-figure out mental states
-be quiet and wise
-stay in a phase for an entire life
-not be affected by superficial affairs
-work
-be a necessity
-release a song
-dream about...

so today, i nearly got hit by a bus and then almost got locked in a staircase landing. i really really hate close calls because i feel like i'm being way too careless but its times like these i realise just how protected i am. and i am thankful.

OMG THE DIRTY EYED GIRLS ARE RECIEVING WORLDWIDE RECOGNITION HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA

HERE AND HERE

HAHA I HAVE OFFICIALLY LOST FAITH IN JOURNALISM

OMG THIS IS SO AMUSING I DONT EVEN KNOW WHAT PLANET I LIVE ON ANYMORE

this needs a big fat HAHA

i don't understand how celebrities can make us feel so happy sometimes. its so delusional and horrid and it just annoys me that i harbour thoughts of airport stalking. EEECH.

this just made me pray that the world doesn't end in 2012 cos i want the chance to grow up, get married with junsu and have kids with junsu. and i dont understand how neitzens can make racist comments about his son like WHAT. who the heck does that. WHAT.

happy new year! 2010 is a new beginning, a chance for me to be a better person. but its freaking me out cos the world is supposedly gonna end in 2 years and i just have this feeling....

:o

새해 복 많이 받으세요!

to me, Rising Sun has the most fantastic choreography I've ever seen, awesome to the point that if i meet DBSK, i'll put away my marriage proposals for a while and request a dance tutorial for that song.

found the opening of One Piece that uses the DBSK song Share The World. am very happy.


also, this makes me wonder what happened after season 1 (or at least after some part where they defeated this villanous shark guy thing who took up way too many episodes)

night succeeds in serenity that the day could never dream of

the only thing that sucked about christmas was that channel U took away my weekly dose of Coffee Prince gahh. it is a really really good show.

what with almost half of Super Junior apparantly filing a lawsuit against their company all i have to say is:

DIE SM JUST DIE SOON AND GIVE DBSK BACK TO US PLEASE

i think God created Kim Junsu to prove that I am not immune to fangirl keyboard smashing.

LKSDLA!@FLJSMDF#$#%^%^LKJDNK#$%^!@@!%*&^%VIUS13UJ

already, the end of the 2009 approaches and i have yet to accomplish anything on my to-do list. thus i say this morning "GOOD BYE BLOG, GOOD BYE COMPUTER, GOOD BYE KPOP OBSESSION". i am taking a break from all these activities that have wasted away my holidays and will be back when i'm done with my other stuff.

take care, God bless, merry christmas (:

kinda creepy to blog about this but i failed at a handstand, nearly dislocated my shoulder and ended up deaf in one ear for 10secs. probably one of the most 'life threatening' situations i have been all my life. haha.

can someone tell me how to do a backflip without putting my life at risk

longest post you'll ever see on this blog for a long time

went to Sundown Festival's Seoul'd Out to immerse myself into the korean pop culture. didnt really work. just annoyed jennifer with my constant requests for translations and my bad korean phrases.

LOTSA LEE JI SU PICS

oppa, nice jacket :)

and jenn, tho u called "JI SU" and he saw you and waved at you which was cool, i still think it was rude. HAHA.

Mario and park shin hye were pretty cool by putting in effort to learn english songs to cater to the audience.

T-max was GOOD. like really, better than i'd expected. however, the only evidence i have is a 3sec video of Kim Joon thanks to Jenn. I was too busy watching them, they were really entertaining, made me smile alot (:

Brown Eyed Girls. They look as pretty as they do on youtube HQ videos. plus they were really sweet and talented. however, it is absolutely impossible for me to fangirl over girl groups. unlike jenn, who was screaming her head off(as heard from the end of the first vid).

Alittle bit of F.T island


Hongki looked upset, jonghun was trying to tease the crowd (i wasnt falling for it), jaejin kept looking in my direction putting him at #1 on my list, seunghyun was far away, minhwan, being the only one actually playing an instrument live, is really really talented. its funny but i can't see them as the idols the other thousand something yellow shirt fans saw, i jus saw a group of guys several years older than me. which they are. and i won't say im impressed by the way they acted as normal guys. but as musicians, hongki's voice was good. i guess they're songs are nice. but the whole fake playing a guitar bothers me alot.

JinJo crew was FANTASTIC im so glad i bothered to record their full performances (minus one dance because i wanted to fully appreciate it). but the vid takes freaking long to upload so i'll try it again next time.

in conclusion: i don't think im ready for a DBSK/Super Junior Concert yet. i want to see them but i don't want to put in any effort and end up with distant views of their faces whilst surrounded by screaming teenagers.

my thoughts now: DBSK phase never needs to end. never.

whilst the world spins and people realise blogging is an outdated trend, i am infront of the computer, typing this nonsense.

conclusion: negligence is key, auditions not so much.

anyway, its 3.48am and i wish junsu was a friend i could have a conversation with. haha.

if i were to see him and go up to him and say: "우리 친구? " and he said "예", and we exchanged phone numbers, i know it's stupid but, i'd think of it as a miracle.

note: i cant find the hangul words for phone number and thus cannot fully express the sentence i would want to say. i officially fail.

what i'd say to him: "im here if you'd settle for second best"

seeing Super Junior M on TV on 100% entertainment was like a hungry child who spots a very delicious looking sushi on a conveyor belt. it was like"OH!" and then 5 secs later when it disappears it becomes "ohh..."

): kyuhyun didn't even say ANYTHING.

back to reality. im coming to terms with not being the #1 friend with everyone. #2 fits me just fine :)

this is a kpop post. i kinda understand why they call leeteuk "peter pan". he's older than the guys from DBSK but he doesnt seem older. he may be "old enough to be a member of H.O.T." but he doesnt seem out of place when singing with SHINee. haha.

it's about a month till the day we get results, i not sure that's enough time though. shirking academic responsibility is incredibly addictive.

today's epic sentence

Jenn: OMG I THINK THEY WILL BE WET

followed by

Jenn:
-WAH
-PIANG
-THEY
-DON'T
-GET
-WET
-WTH
-I WILL SUE
-SM

today's "WHAT THE HECK?" moment occured at 3.15am:

HEROISM says:
I WANNA MAJOR IN KIM JAE JOONG

AJUXIAHTIC says:
EH arent u like happy that u are kim also

HEROISM says:
hahah wth

HEROISM says:
it's like saying
eh since you're tan
i also tan

HEROISM says:
WAH HAPPY SIA

AH. My brain is too tired to cope with such things.

"You want me baby: Xiahtic"

XIAH JUNSU YOUR ENGLISH VEH PRO SEH

Friends are like celebrities because they inspire, makes us laugh, cry and teach us. haha, perhaps im giving too much credit to celebrities?

ahh.junsujunsujunsu.

Friends are the celebrities in our lives that we know are real and there.

reality or fantasy? education or music? rock or pop? SM, YG or JYP? Super Junior or DBSK? mmm. choices, choices.

as hot as they are, jaejoong (sorry jenn! :D) and yunho should really wear clothes that cover something. haha. JUNSU'S ARMS THOUGH.... assure my status as a fan girl and supporter of the High Definition option. and micky why you so fine.




DBSK might not be my favorite group but they are very very very good looking.

anyway, i think i scared jenn off with my korean :( HAHA

i think we aren't born afraid. it's kind of like a virus and guilt leaves us vulnerable.

I. LOVE. PEANUT BUTTER. ALOT.

너무 좋아요!

had a fun monday with people i'm incredibly blessed to call friends. wasted my life on tuesday. am living 2 and a half hours into wednesday.

i don't think i've ever loved a Rihanna song so much.

to those in the know:in my last post, i was veering towards : "would i have been a 2PM member?" HAHAHA. refer to wooyoung's beginning.

i am not asleep. but i am dreaming. hmm. its mindblowing when you think of the people in this world, how different we are in the places and ways we live and how we think.i wonder, if i had actually worked hard to overcome something, would i have had a different life?

HOW MANY FAMOUS BOY BANDS DO YOU KNOW OUT THERE THAT HAVE MEMBERS THAT WOULD INCORPORATE A ROCK PAPER SCISSORS GAME INTO THEIR DANCE ROUTINES WHEN THEY ARE PERFORMING LIVE?

only super junior. and that's why i love them.

reading past posts remind of memories i don't recall having. it's like a life of mine i've never lived. i was soo obsessed with being a musician then HAHAHAHA

some things never change :)

didn 't want to post anymore but this, this is just too good.



i should stop now.

HAHA. THIS is one of the reasons for my previous post.

and also this:

was watching some hilarious Whose Line Is It Anyway and ended up watching Stephen Fry and Hugh Laurie skits. I have to say, i think i prefer british humour, i don't cringe as much

jenn i am going to go to your house, i am going to go to your house you can't keep me away! :D

PEOPLE WHO READ MY BLOG: IF YOU ACTUALLY EXIST, I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU AND ALSO INFORM YOU THAT BY CLICKING ON THE TIME OF MY POST YOU END UP IN A PAGE THAT ALLOWS YOU TO COMMENT. YES. I just figured it out. HAHA!

Articles on ONTD! criticizing anything Twilight related are funny funny stuff :)

I remember when I was 8 yrs old i had a friend called Grace (who was in the sec school i just left but we don't talk) and it's not like 8year olds hang out out of school alot so i don't have much to remeber her by, only 4 incidents: a pretty good birthday party at her condo, talking about scary shows, misbehaving during a substitute teacher's class and talking about religion. I suddenly just started thinking about her. I wonder if she remembers me...?

Friends: They either build or break your heart.

Prom this evening. I am hoping they have good food. Fooooooood.

Have yet to see people get as as excited about english as they do.
hyukjae: "Crystal?!? I'm crystal! I'm jewel guy! You and me, same same... You're my girlfriend! Yea!" :)

Just want to say I am proud of viv for not doing freaky stuff. HAHA.
MY DAY WAS:
God+Family+Friends+Ice-cream=HAPPINESS
행복!

Magnae Kyuhyun is love.

No, I haven't come up with something "worthy of listening to" but knowing my social life (non existent) and narcissistic nature (very much alive),I am no doubt going to blog. So to start afresh (again), instead of following trends, since I can't beat them, I'll join them. Just in my own warped little way. I'm not going to get a twitter, and neither will I blog no longer. I am going to tweet on my blog.

I have a feeling this is not under 140 characters. HAHA.

This blog will remain dead until a certain time in the distant future when I have something to say worthy of listening to.

From loud announcements to quiet self indulgence.
Here we go. Oh, Don't follow.
Here I go.

Goodbye blog, goodbye. Won't be posting for a long time. Hey this paragraph is starting to rhyme.

hello again.

jennifer wants me to blog and as much as i am now assured that at least one more person other then me is going to read whatever i post, i really have nothing to say.

haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JENN!

just imagine that today is tomorrow.

it's always nice to know i still have friends.

i'll never let you go, it's not over yet.

I LOVE THE WORLD. haha i LOVE MY FRIENDS. I LOVE MUSIC. I LOVE GOD.

I love everything !!

i am happy. i just am. because i was watching funny stuff from the Academy Is... and then i went to check out Look At Luke's purevolume and everything's in such a different perspective now.
and though things have changed everything's still the same and i feel like the luckiest kid on earth.

I LOVE ALL MY FRIENDS. AMANDA AND JASMIN AND MELISSA AND VIVECKA AND CLARE AND YVONNE!!! AND PEOPLE THAT I HAVENT SPOKEN TO IN A LONG TIME I MISS YOU(kelicia, cleo, the twins)!!!! I LOVE THE PEOPLE THAT I SHOULD HAVE NEVER STOPPED BEING FRIENDS WITH (isis, jenn, joy)!!

I LOVE ALL OF THEM AND I APOLOGIZE FOR NOT BEING A GOOD FRIEND so far. but i try hard.

and of course to my future friends!haha tomorrow is a new day or whatever.

i sound so ridiculous really. but im just happy.

i love music and i promise (myself) that im never gonna give it up no matter how many times i fail.

woah. haha god bless.

On a certain rather entertaining american sitcom by the name of "How I Met Your Mother..." there is a character called Barney who goes around in a suit and says really insensitive and highly amusing things. This role is played by an actor by the name of Neil Patrick Harris and though not many have heard of him, I can tell you from my first hand experience (of seeing him on the said sitcom and the very informative Ellen Degeneres) that he is an incredibly talented, funny actor, charming in every way, a positively mind blowing magician and...

gay.

Which leaves my chances of ending up with him in some kind of parrellel universe absolutely zilch.

Sigh.

21st Century Breakdown out the 15th of May while New Again on 20th June. Aaand Blink 182. Out. Sometime.

And I'm going to be totally honest to the one person who reads this blog (haha: me!) that I am in quite a dilemma on whether I want to go back on my decision of telling the Look at Luke people that "We are on a hiatus" because I really shouldn't have. And that you guys should take into account that my say is nothing but 1/4 (or less) of the intelligence that exists in the group hence the question "Why didn't anyone overrule me?"

heh. I am ...pining?

Aiyah i feel so pathetic now. haha but it sucks when i listen to like an awesome song and think "AH gotta ask jasmin to learn this song..." and then i realise that i cant and its anti climatic.

and I think I love Muse!

Goodbye.

BLINK 182 IS BACK
(i wish i had the time to make this larger. and work on colour coordination. and amath.)

album out summer of this year (seeing as its summer all year round in singapore...)

oh please please may they come to singapore.

I'm back for now.

Three days after christmas and five days til the dreaded school year. You know i would love to say that i look forward to it, just for the sake of being different, but i don't. So i can't lie. I really don't want to go back. The reasons are obvious: Boring (same routine), Pointless (study to study), Totally Unnecessary In the Long Run (hey st peter! But i got an A for math!).

The only reason why i do not resort to skipping is that it's wayyy too much trouble for me and my family and the school and the ministry and the world. And that school seems to be the only outlet for social interaction (which means increased chance of acutally doing some good).

Anyway, Christmas was good. Thanks for the presents people! Though i must say, i was watching christmas shows on the television and have come to the the conclusion that the 25th of dec has become WAAAAYYY too commercialised. isn't the whole santa and reindeer thing getting old? Hello? WHO'S BIRTHDAY IS IT? my dad was telling me and my brother a story about how people were partying and having fun and making noise on christmas and there's this knock on the door but no one hears it and they all just keep partying. and they don't realise that it's the birthday of Jesus but he wasn't let in.

and how many christmas songs are actually meaningful? most are about santa and rudolf the red nose reindeer. pleasant, but lacking in everything that has got to do with the occasion. Oh well.

I won't be back for a long time.

HAHA did Noel G. from Oasis slam the jonas brothers?

these lines, so well reharsed. tongue-tied and over loaded. you never noticed.

i am happy to say i really really love The Academy Is 's new sound, incredibly radio friendly but i love it anyway. it's very nice :) and simple. that's music i guess.

i like how the beginning of their song About A Girl sounds like a FireFight song. haha. anyway.

i have exams coming up so

WHAT THE HECK AM I DOING HERE.

say cheese.

hello!

On sunday, three quarters of Look At Luke (Mainly me, jas and manda) went to review the almost entire local scene there was and i have come to the conclusion:

It's really not as bad as you expect, but not as good as you wished.

yea. i fell in love with the vocalist from Armchair Critic on that day! haha. okok i didnt really like swoon over him and run up to him and offer him a plastic rose but i kept commenting on how cute he was when he sang cos he rolled his eyes and it was cute. and then jas and amanda kept teasing me. uh huh. OKAY anyway, the Fire Fight were the best to me that night, really really good music. yay.

okay. so then just now i was searching for Fire Fight's myspace (www.myspace.com/thefirefightsg) and it took me a really long time to find and i went to all the wrong sites. ANYWAY, the joshua guy from fire fight is from a vacant affair too! how cool is that man. woo.

okay. so i shall continue on my homework and then proceed to make look at luke better than firefight.

ps: electrico is so cool! they're like the seniors of singapore rock!

i AM BACK

I found this very cool quiz from Joy's blog so i shall do it. it is possibly the most interesting quiz thing ive seen.

It’s harder than it looks! Copy and paste to your own journal, erase my answers, and add your own.Use the 1st letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real places, names &/or objects, but nothing made up! Try to use different answers if the person you got this from has the same 1st initial. You CAN’T use your name for the boy/girl name question.

My name starts with a B
1) 4 LETTER WORD: Bees
2) BOY NAME: Ben
3) GIRL NAME: Beatrice! woohoo i feel smart.
4) OCCUPATION: Box ghost! haha nono um bus driver.
5) A COLOR: BLUEEEEEEE
6) SOMETHING YOU WEAR: Blouses!
7) BEVERAGE: Big cuppa coffee
8)FOOD: Burgerrrrrrrrrrrrs.
9) SOMETHING FOUND IN A BATHROOM: BATHTUB! haha
10) A PLACE: Bishan
11) REASON FOR BEING LATE: Bad time estimation
12) SOMETHING YOU SHOUT: BOOO!

everyone should do this.

hello again

it's a bit narcisstic isnt it? to have your own website filled with your own thoughts. yea but aren't we all...

so it's almost nine in the (afternoon!) morning on a SUNDAY and i woke up at 7.20 and wondered why my mum didnt wake me like she does every sunday morning so we can attend 7.30 mass together so then i just lay there pissed and abondoned and pissed then i got up and made my bed and ate breakfast and realised that i have nothing to do except waste my brain on the computer. so here i am, wasting my brain.

i might be going to jas's house today to jam hopefully it'll cheer me up.anyway, i dunno if i wanna go for singfest. i mean there is jason mraz, panic, one republic and jamie scott that i wouldnt mind seeing but then isit worth 200 bucks? :(

i dunnooooooo.

Warning: this post will not make sense to those outside my head.

So it's like this. The world doesn't rotate the way you want it to, it doesn't work the way you planned it to so you gotta live with it and it's alright if you view it from the big picture but when it happens its freaking hard to cope with. When a friend decides something it's not your freaking business and yet it's your freaking business because it's your friend who is deciding and i feel like SCREAMING at her and strangling her and just kicking her ass multiple times and telling her to 'wake up' and realise that there is a GOD and that he is THERE and he LOVES you and WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS WHY ARE YOU SAYING THIS because IT'S NOT TRUE i know you are not what you claim you are, what you are close to bragging about so shut up and listen to yourself, listen to how ridiculous you sound and how much it's hurting me and driving me up these white walls of mine. i don't know why your doing this and i don't disapprove of it GENERALLY but i disapprove of it when you do it because it's you and friends are not biodegradable

on a lighter note, it is friday and on sunday i get to be with my one and only (haha music! what were you thinking, amanda?).

oh well.

there was something else i wanted to rant about but it all seems so unimportant which means it wasnt important in the first place. i feel like writing a story. haha but you know how non-commited i am. ah well. they shall stay fun and fluffy in my head.

i want to write i want to write i want to write like you do i want to write like you do i want to write forever

beat it!

im listening to the live tracks off falloutboy's LIVE album (yes thank you for the present) and they sound really good which urges me to ask "what happened on 3rd march 2006?" i think that was when they came to singapore. anyway, other than pete throwing his bass and getting his shirt ripped off by screaming fan girls with raging hormones (i was standing FAR away so haha) it wasn't very good. ah but who am i to judge when i am a mere one-concert-goner. haha. yes.

ooo. patrick is singing I Wite Sings Not Tragedies. woohoo.

anyway, i would like to say that opening my email continues creeping me out thanks to all those scary spam emails in my junkmail (which i do not open) which is quite unnerving since i am freaked out by the titles alone. how am i to last in this world of deception?

and by the way amanda, the time traveller's wife is entertaining but there are far too many sex scenes and vulgarities which are somewhat disturbing for me.

to karyn: its this church camp that i go to, to get the whole level of sec 3 kids to get ready for the process of comfirmation which is like us going through this occasion thing where we are comfirmed into the church and stuff. yea. honestly, i am sad to say i am lousy at explaining this.

to joy: thank you joy!!! im quite sad u couldnt come for the party(pronounced: partehhh), i havent seen ur face since the prehistoric days.

to brigid: thank you!! woohoo. haha.

falloutboy has strange booming sounds throughout their live performances. haha i have realised that i really really really love their old song "Saturday" which means i loved the old them which doesnt really mean anything does it? okay.

www.purevolume.com/lookatluke check this out, i love these kids. :)

the sky...

hello.

so recently i came back from comfirmation camp. an enriching experience, and if i had gone in and come out being stubborn, nothing would have changed, but thankfully i tried my best to go in with an open mind and also with the help of the oh so enthusiastic Heleyna who was very very excited about camp, i think i've learnt something and from now on i am going to close my eyes and fall back and let the God do what he may, catch me or not.

last night before i slept, i worried about and thought about a friend and then i told my self there was nothing i could do (Cept pray for her) and then i sleep and end up DREAMING about it!

im so lazy. i have nothing better to do nowadays. oh well.

my party's coming up but i don't care that im growing older, its the FRIENDS that i cant wait to say and smile with! yipee. couldn't ask for me.

good news! i am a professional at cooking eggs in a tiny frying pan now.

This does not panic my disco! -amanda

youdon'thavetoworryyoudont

helloooooooo.

it's the second week of holidays and i have done nothing so far that is significant. i have camp in a few days and am dreading it. but, on a positive note, i am going ice skating with my friends this week. so yay. haha.

gahh.

we got to find a way.

so i had no intention of blogging but since S and A did (haha ABBRIEVATIONS) and well J didnt, but oh well, i shall blog too. oh and also because William Beckett's voice is so beautiful (like a choir of angels!)

so recently i have been jamming, not alot, but more then usual. at least that't what J did. and i love jamming. love love. and now since we are a complete band, thanks to S, we are complete and i feel professional and so much smarter. haha ok.

and so i would like to say THANK YOU A, J, AND S FOR EXISTING, because without you guys, i would be a loser, unlike now when i am a loser with a band.

so thank you.

and to S, no need to apologize about the cable and the late coming thing because A was late too, and all of us made dents so sorry J! :D

altho i shud apologize for being such a WEIRD, QUEER LITTLE ASS HOLE who says and does weird things. :( and embarasses herself repeatedly and does stupid things and is disrespectful to J's parents and eating oreo with bread.

but THANK YOU THANK YOU for jamming together!

LONG LIVE LAL! i hope i can become better friends with you guys (S esp since i am very shy infront of you, i know it may not seem it but i AM!) and also write better songs and become sucessful with you ppl AND LIVE MY LIFE MUSICALLY AND HAPPILY.

woohoo.

william beckett's voice is making me high.

but wait that's just too much to ask.

CONGRATS TO DAVID COOK, THE NEWEST AMERICAN IDOL.
he deserves the title! cos hes so cool. hahah and he sings well. and is left handed. and plays guitar. using a left handed guitar. and hes original. and cool.

oh well.

thurday,thursday,thursday. i have never realised how hard it is to type "thursday". until now.

yknw what. there something about school holidays that just pisses me off. because for most people who go to school, the name is just a stupid facade. school holidays arent exactly holidays. not even close. its just false hope. yea, FALSE HOPE. delude all the young people out there into thinking salvation is in days when WE ALL KNOW ITS NOT. because we all have to go back to that dreaded place.

"it's the school holidays, but you have to come back to school."

gosh, really how hypocritical can you get.

but i get it, the school days arent enough to fit in all of the syllabus. we need to constantly revise in other not to lose touch with our knowledge.

but maybe if the school would STOP MAKING STUPID OCCASIONS WHERE WE SIT AROUND IN THE HALL SMELLING EACH OTHERS SWEAT AND WHISPERING "KILL ME, KILL ME" THEN MAYBE WE COULD ACTUALLY FINISH STUDYING WHATEVER THAT IS NOW RUINING MY HOLIDAY.


sigh.

holidays, holidays. but theres not enough time. for everything. for music, for socializing, for being alone, for watching tv.

and i cant find my earphones. and my usb cable.

which means i have to go get a new USB cable. that sucks.

WHERE IS MY USB CABLE. HOW CAN A WIRE DISAPPEAR. DANG IT.

GAHHHHHH.

i. need. to. find. it.

hello!

see this is why i dont like using the com. things freak me out.

i attached earphones to the com and when it was starting up a weird wooshing sound was heard. VERY SCARY.

then my blog keeps having pop ups. once again, VERY SCARY.

and i cant find my camera wire thing.

aiya.

over my head.

im sweating and sweating and feeling like crap and one side of my earphone does not work. did i mention i feel crappy? and im still sweating.

gahh.

i hate phases. well i cant really say i hate, if u think of that as a strong word. i'll say i dislike them, then. not that im going thru one. unless... is it possible to go through a phase where u dislike phases? i dont think this is how you use the word 'phase' properly. im not sure. but what i talking is about those periods of time when someone you know, someone you are concerned about, someone you have good times with, basically a friend, does stuff which makes you frown and shiver. because this isnt the person you befriended right? or am i just being prejudiced. because it's not their fault, its kind of natural right? puberty, dammit. and we all know not many can defeat the forces of puberty, not even artemis fowl. but then what if the phase lasts much longer and then they make mistakes and things go wrong... and its like "that's not you, that's not who you are, what you stand for." but i guess, isnt it them who know best?

oh well. just forget i ever said anything.

lala.

tmr is so undecided.

i cant wait for panic to come. i mean, so far i've been to ONE concert and missed ALOT OF OTHERS so knowing that neither band that have come will come back, so its like SMALL TINY possibilities that bands i like actually come to lil ol singapore (Which i love dearly). so yay panic! whoo hoo.

i feel like playing this computer game i used to play when i was a kid. where's that cd....

hello again

okay maybe im just being prejudiced. haha i cant wait for the twilight movie! ah. looks very fancy from the trailer. edward/robert's fringe is funny. its all upright. very... strange. makes his head look all the more triangular! haha.

I CANT WAIT FOR THE MOVIE.

december 12th! yay.

im gg with viv to see it. cos i promised her. sort of.

yea.

woohoo.

yea.

I needa go practise my piano!

OH NO

OH NO. THE GUY WHO PLAYS JACOB BLACK IS FROM THAT SHARKBOY LAVA GIRL MOVIE.

AND HE HAS FUZZY HAIR.

just beat it!

woohoo!

twilight!

exams are over! time to worry about life.

so things have cropped up and not for the best, i end up spending my sat lazing around with a rubix cube and a nintendo ds. today i shall continue that. i shall make an effort to practise piano tho, and finally bother to plug in the electric guitar and play play play.

yknw holidays are coming and all i got planned is band stuff, sit ups, piano, more band stuff and ......my birthday. i dunno wat i want for my birthday, i guess it doesnt matter. im thinking about having a party, just an excuse to see all the friends i havent seen since last year.

gosh.

and panic! isnt coming. i think. thats so sad.

ahhhhhh!

p.s. shud i get a psp?

Examinations, no celebrations...

the song jasmin posted on a *certain* band's webpage makes me want to cry. and its not because its a sad song. let's just say its not very good.

ANYWAY. i havent blogged in a long time. so here i am. i shud be studying. yknw i wrote half a chapter of chapter 1 of my planned werewolf story and im giving up. talk about perserverance and willpower, woohoo me! blah. computer's creep me out. and i dunno wat to do online. so that means i dont really use the com much. haha. okay. i really dont know what to say.

so how do u do?

yknw the new panic! at the di- no im sorry. the new PANIC AT THE DISCO (without the EXCLAMATION POINT, mind you) album is really funny when u listen to it the first time round. then it gets weird. then mildly entertaining.

then u realise, hey its damn good.

and then u get hooked. then u get The Green Gentleman song running thru ur head every single second.

so my advice for u panic fans, GO GET THE ALBUM! hoho.

eh the com is really creeping me out.

p.s.: i dun think i shud get a psp. its so.... materialistic it seems. to ask for a gadget that i'll throw aside. plus i have alot of other stuff. which i am thankful for. sigh. i shant get it then, i shall be happy with my life.
p.s.s: yknw wat i want? GUITAR STRINGS. and possibly a new guitar. cos my guitar is so hard to tune. the strings keep snapping. i know, i know its cos im lousy at guitar restringing! its not my fault i wasnt born with this talent.
p.s.s.s: anyone wants to restring it for me?
p.s.s.s.s: for free! im not charging you!
p.s.s.s.s.s: blah. actually ive got nothing to say. jus wanted to type all that 's's and full stops. its really hard yknw. takes alot outta you.

haha I AM ALIIIIIIIVE.

I AM ALIIIVE!

thats right! yeah. yknw i really dont see a reason why i have a blog. other than it being a platform for amanda to shamlessly advertise her blog, it doesnt really serve much of a purpose. well yea cos i havent been blogging much. but it because i have nothing to say. which is really annoying since i WANT to have something to say. since i need to write it down for important purposes such as my...

CAREER! MY FUTURE! MY LIFE!

well okay i dont think its THAT serious. or maybe it is. oh gosh. yknw i hate the smell of blood? all metal-y and gross? makes me feel super nauseus(i really cant spell this). so that really rules out me being a doctor. or a surgeon. haha same thing. and i dont think i'll be a scientist. honestly? what do scientists do? they experiment and stuff right?ohhh. realisation seeps in. anyway i'd never be a scientists. i cant do experiments. cos its like "OOOO FUN!" at first then when i actually start cutting up that potato i really cant be bothered anymore and it ends up all fat and funny looking. and then i get critisized and then i get fed up. and then i get bothered that my school's bio lab doesnt have soap.

hey! guess wat? i didnt go to the school on the first day of go-back-to-school-day-after-week-of-holidays. why? cos i am sick. like sore throat and headaches and fever. yknw i can never tell if i have a fever? haha a good doctor i'll make.

yknw im really really really starting to fall in love love love with the show "Veronica Mars". if u start watching it now in the middle of a season i dont think you'll get it cos its like continious and stuff. anyway the latest episode i watched was really really good. it was wat i needed to feed my mood swings. haha. LOGAN AND VERONICA STILL LURVE EACH OTHER! how adorable is that. well not so if you don't know what the heck im talking about. im starting to think that logan looks pretty cute. yknw i was gonna say hes hot and all but in real life hes married so yknw, hes unavailable. yknw so many ppl are marrying so young. but its so cool if they dont get divorced and stuff. yknw? haha NEVERMIND. anyway the storyline for Veronica Mars is really cool i mean you've got like adult troubles + teen romances + sacarstic dialogue + investigative stuff! thats like the greatest show on earth. well not really. haha its pacifying me now tho. ahhhhhh. and i like the theme song. haha i just do.

hey i just blogged quite a lot! and my backbone is hurting. aaaaaand i dont think im gonna update anytime soon. and and. yknw its really really hard writing a song. i mean its easy getting a tune and a song in YOUR HEAD but then when it comes out its all MUSH and RUBBISH and u think about it and u get so annoyed cos its all MUSH and RUBBISH. and then u rewrite it over and over again. blablabla.

yknw i havent practised piano/done my piano theory yet. im gonna flunk all my piano exams!!! GAHH.

yknw the guy who acts as Logan in veronica mars acts as a Vampire dude in Moonlight. yknw i dont think i'll be watching that if they show it on Channel 5. its bad inuf when i get all high on fictional vampires and werewolves in Twilight so. haha.

whooo. unessecary boring rantings.

my back is still aching.

yknw something funny and strange is happening to me in school. im getting very very well acquinted with dawn, heleyna, venetia. like wooshboom. cos yknw the anti social person like me doesnt suddenly become 'close' to ppl i just suddenlt started talking to. i mean viv and jasmin im alrealdy close to and dawn im quite close to cos we go to cat class together. but yknw wat happened? one day we started naming ourselves celebrity names and WHOOSHBOOM we're a clique! so odd. hmm.

haha i cant believe im discussing my social life here. not that its interesting or anything. i havent seen so many friends in such a long time. i wish there werent so many ppl in the world. then it would be easy to keep in contact with people.


arghhhh.

look at luke! woohoo.

okay. i think im done here?

yea.

The city is at war

i came online to put myself into Blink 182 overdrive. ended up doing more than that. my biology is left unstudied; oh no!

and stupid stupid social studies project. so.... unessescary.

and i need to go out. more. i need to talk to those lost friends. i need to stop feeling bad about certain stuff.

oh well.

i would like to learn spanish.

yes yes. i dunno wat to say.

argh why can't my recordings be in wma format? garrhh.

ladeela.

humdedum.

i shall head over to purevolume now.