and he has such an old name it's kinda funny and makes me think of nostalgia and things that have gone. and i wonder at the physics of the world and realise that God isn't fair. there are those that decieve and hurt but are given the liberty to do so. i would never hurt anyone if there are ever any that would want to look up towards me because i know i do not deserve it. no one should be placed on pedastals or buried into the ground. hardwork gets you respect but not the excuse to be an asshole. i wish i could please everyone and just let them know that look, im not any better than you but im here if u need me but if you don't then it's ok. time to forgive, time to change. and trust is such an important thing, that's why God gave friends.

i will work my ass off, physically, mentally, emotionally. train so i can run faster and not be afraid; learn so i can understand and not worry anyone; love so God will know that i love him and everything i do will be for Him.

and the next time we meet, i hope i'll be good enough (:

And it's you that I see but you don't see, and it's you that I hear so loud and so clear. Sing it loud and clear; I'll always be waiting for you.
~Shiver: Coldplay

im sad nowadays and just so so tired. what happened to purpose and life

y r u quiet, when u're so much better than me? y do u smile, if u're unhappy?

i love One Piece so so much

so everything in this novel is basically a sexual allusion? ok sure. i sometimes doubt what they call "literature" is something i should get involved with

eunhyuk's twitter picture is monkey d luffy hahahahahahaha coincidence/coincidence

준수씨, 보고싶어요.

wish thr was a korean tv show for all of us; we'd all get paired up n either fall in love or something close

whoo. but i'm tired. still, whoo.

stop sitting around doing nothing. get your life back.

most of the time i just waste most of the time

after my 'A's are over, imma go to korea and be at the Han River everynight and wait for something magical to happen

忘れないで。

（ゆめ）

i was reminded today how it is easy for guys to joke with each other and like tease and kid around even at times when one of them is really thankful and it doesnt come off as unappreciative but i could see how "brotherly" it was and how the guy was genuinely happy and both of them had this tacit agreement that they both care for each other.and the friendship is to the point where they can say anything at anytime whether it may be nonsense or really really personal stuff and its fine. with girls its still there but alittle more complicated and somehow i am more touched when i see the camaradarie between guys. sigh. i am and will always be slightly envious. but im glad ive grown closer to people.

and i really wish i had really high EQ. or at least like a sentence that i could say to cheer people up. because i hate it when people i love are feeling down and it doesnt work when i try to cheer them up because im so bad at it but i wish i could help but i cant ):

from now on, i resolve to be nicer, the be there for people. n to stop suaning feroz cos its just plain mean (:

GOODBYE INTERNET. YOU ARE A COMPLETE WASTE OF MY LIFE, I WILL NO LONGER ABUSE U TO TALK ABOUT MYSELF HAHA.

:D see u next year.

what happened to quiet intervals in conversations held under the stars because i miss that i miss being safe and being honest and complaining about selfishness while being selfish. what happened to creating memories. what happened to me.

im still a young immature kid, (almost) crying over losing friends who you remember promising to never not be friends with, to keep on being honest with and everything, but then it ends and things change and then you just learn to take steps back

and bump into new people.

but you never forget :)

i am excessive and you are insistive. slipping into that self conscious selfishness again, the world won't wait for me to learn my lessons and change my ways. and everything is in fluctuation. whats right and what's wrong;

oh wait this is the guilt talking. or perhaps the fact that i have 3 hours to sleep.