i love One Piece so so much

so everything in this novel is basically a sexual allusion? ok sure. i sometimes doubt what they call "literature" is something i should get involved with

eunhyuk's twitter picture is monkey d luffy hahahahahahaha coincidence/coincidence

준수씨, 보고싶어요.

wish thr was a korean tv show for all of us; we'd all get paired up n either fall in love or something close

whoo. but i'm tired. still, whoo.

stop sitting around doing nothing. get your life back.

most of the time i just waste most of the time

after my 'A's are over, imma go to korea and be at the Han River everynight and wait for something magical to happen

忘れないで。

（ゆめ）

i was reminded today how it is easy for guys to joke with each other and like tease and kid around even at times when one of them is really thankful and it doesnt come off as unappreciative but i could see how "brotherly" it was and how the guy was genuinely happy and both of them had this tacit agreement that they both care for each other.and the friendship is to the point where they can say anything at anytime whether it may be nonsense or really really personal stuff and its fine. with girls its still there but alittle more complicated and somehow i am more touched when i see the camaradarie between guys. sigh. i am and will always be slightly envious. but im glad ive grown closer to people.

and i really wish i had really high EQ. or at least like a sentence that i could say to cheer people up. because i hate it when people i love are feeling down and it doesnt work when i try to cheer them up because im so bad at it but i wish i could help but i cant ):

from now on, i resolve to be nicer, the be there for people. n to stop suaning feroz cos its just plain mean (:

GOODBYE INTERNET. YOU ARE A COMPLETE WASTE OF MY LIFE, I WILL NO LONGER ABUSE U TO TALK ABOUT MYSELF HAHA.

:D see u next year.

what happened to quiet intervals in conversations held under the stars because i miss that i miss being safe and being honest and complaining about selfishness while being selfish. what happened to creating memories. what happened to me.

im still a young immature kid, (almost) crying over losing friends who you remember promising to never not be friends with, to keep on being honest with and everything, but then it ends and things change and then you just learn to take steps back

and bump into new people.

but you never forget :)

i am excessive and you are insistive. slipping into that self conscious selfishness again, the world won't wait for me to learn my lessons and change my ways. and everything is in fluctuation. whats right and what's wrong;

oh wait this is the guilt talking. or perhaps the fact that i have 3 hours to sleep.

i despise change, and endings. when things arent what they were and you're losing it to the past. i hate when you hang up and you think about the conversation that passed and listen to the sound of the dead line. but the problem with not letting go is that its... selfish

i realise i really need someone there, to hold my hand and lead me along, to tell me to keep going, to keep me happy even when im working, because my priorities are all messed up i am on a slippery slope.

im going to be totally immature right now and act like some young teenage girl even though im smarter than this but whatever but whatever. i wonder if i'll ever fall in love. i wonder if love exists already, or it is to be created. i am aware of love from friends, God, family but now im being immature so let me talk about romantic love like boy girl stuff like teenage stuff ok lets be superficial and shallow for this while. i wonder if i'll ever fall in love. or fall into the idea of what love should be. i wonder what love is. i wonder if u really really like the person truly, like every fault and every thing every feature or just the idea of it or just the person in general. does society's idea of love shape relationships. are we meant to acknowledge a person as a lover merely because of courting and of touch and of words. i don't know. do we truly romantically love a person? what does that even mean. does fate really matter. i wonder if it does. haha honestly its not going really well in my favour haha. and does love mean that we have to lower expectations? or just wait? must i let go and just accept that i am not extremely attractive and thus perhaps not worthy of being with the people that i "fall" for. like crush on. plus is crushing even right? because we judge by appearance right? but i can sort of see his character and i kind of am attracted to it. but what if he isnt really like what i think he is. so im wrong? so everything just has to happen? so i just wait? but what if its perfect. haha i am impatient. butbutbut. i dont know why i even bother.

THERE ARE BIGGER THINGS HAPPENING IN THIS WORLD WHY AM I LIKE THIS

i wonder if he sees me,
or if he sees through me.
i wonder if this is healthy

or if it would mean anything

in the end?

need to set my priorities right. what with DBSK, MM, pre-u, basically school stuff and music leaving me rather disappointed, i shall set a new set of goals:

-God
-Studies. studystudystudy
-Japanese. studystudystudy
-just being a better person. making others happy (:

after JC i hope i'll free time to catch up on stuff like piano,diving,writing, reading.. and maybe i'll join more church stuff.

ok im feeling abit more organized now