Step one...

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
And you begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I could have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I could have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I could have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Dammit. I really love the lyrics. if only i could write lyrics like this... haha. argh. this song makes me wanna cry. sigh. its damn nice. i get this chilly feeling when i read the lyrics. ITS DAMN NICE. AAAAAAAAAH. its nice. haha. i really have nothing else to say other then "this song is really really nice." it is. And when u read thru it i hope it makes u think. it's just really really nice. haha okay i'll stop saying that and get back to chap9.

Where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness and I could've stayed up with you all night, if I'd known how to save a life.

This afternoon after a VERY BAD ALMOST FAINT FROM MENSTRAL CRAMPS ndp practise, i came home, used to toilet and saw something very exciting in the newspaper.

5.00pm
The Ellen Degeneres show:
Edward Norton/Anne Hathaway/The Fray

Now what exactly you may ask, is so darn exciting about that? It's not like theres a tsunami or maybe my picture some how got on the newspaper. well i'll answer you:

EDWARD NORTON (i really dunno if im correct with spelling his sur name) AND THE FRAY ARE ON THE SHOW!!!

So then u ask : who the heck are these people.

then I'll answer: THE COOLEST THING. okay the only movie i ever watched with Edward in it was Italian Job and he was the BAD BAD MAN. but i really wanted to watch The Illusionist. and he interests me :) so i watched ellen interview him and he's really funny.

Ellen and Edward are playing PING PONG. edward was in China shooting his new film and was trained by this ping pong master whom he called "Pong Master D".

Ellen: I like badminton. Have you tried Badminton? I like badminton.
Edward: What do you like paddles or something?
Audience and Ellen (And my mom): *laughs*
Ellen: *Puts on serious face* It's none of your business.

WHEEEEEEE. AND THE FRAY IS DAMN GOOD. i really really like the song "How To Save A Life" it gives me goose bumps everytime i hear it. It's damn nice la. I wanna get their CD.

so anyway, MY TAGBOARD ISNT WORKING FOR ME. i cant tag on it! and its depressing. so i shall answer the HAPPY HAPPY ABUNDANCE OF TAGS here! whee.

to kelly: Haha i really dont get it. ok actually i do. but why isit mean when u say it. okay i dont get it.
to joy: huh? wat two chapters? do wat to ur story?
to viv: yea i know it was out LOOOOONG time ago but as an avid-non-hilary fan i didnt bother to watch or listen to it.... but for the sake of the hot guy, maybe i will... one day.... when im bored... and i remember...
to karyn: yea hilary cant sing la! she can HIT NOTES but thats NOTHING. i can hit notes too! but i can play guitar so im superior to her.... right? and paris hilton's songs are nice but she has a freaky LOW voice that freaks me out. heh. and i remember hilary crazy viv too... HAHAHAHHA. and no i am not avoiding you if i am, i didnt know :D

ok so much for tags. i wanna tell u guys an INTERESTING STORY.

so here i was, searching for blank cds in this cardboard (i owe cheryl teo Infinity On High and Chrons of Life And Death but she forgot when i told her i owed her it she was all "really? haha nvm" so nvm la. ok.) AND INSTEAD OF FINDING CDS, I FOUND TWO VERY COOL THINGS THAT WILL BENEFIT ME AND MY BAND (oh dear dysfunctional band).

RIGHT. i found a cd label thinger. it is VERY DAMN COOL. u can label ur cds! LIKE LABEL! LIKE COOL LA!

and i found the microfone (finally, i tot my dad gave it away) the plug looks like it can fit into one of the guitar amps lying around my house so one day I'll try. i think mikes are cool. so are gerards.


HHAHHAHAHA.

ignore me. or dont. 7pm show starting soon. and thanks to amanda's post for reminding me I WANT KERRANG!. ARRRRRRRGH. i want my FOB and GC. bleagh. and i wanna watch Music & Lyrics.



GOOOOOOOOSEBUMPS. dont ask unless u wanna know.


chapter 9 here i cooooooome. dear sweet beloved! hah.


So where did I go wrong? I lost a friend somewhere along in the bitterness.

HEY HEY YOU YOU

haha. avril lavigne is amusing me! yknw at first i was watching the video and i was thinking "SHIT! avril's become one of THEM (them as in those unoriginal pop-punk girls who merely walk around in a piece of cloth)" then the video started amusing me and i thought "hmm, maybe shes just kidding?" so then i go see her official web (usually theres like a JOURNAL BUT NOOO) and then i read the bio and it talks abt how avril feels abt the new album and the song and then i realise shes

NOT joking.

so its kind of hard for me to like accept the new avril. cos i used to really like her lyrics, they werent mindless crap and stuff, they had meaning (but pete's lyrics are the best tho. HAHA.). yea. but i guess its like more pop punk and i dont really mind cos the songs catchy.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

i think some weird virus person hacked into my hotmail.

cos i got TWO emails which were sent from MY EMAIL and they were abt GAS AND TRADE BLAH. and its SCARY LA.

im very very freaked out.

and the new MCR video isnt helping. the girl has freaky big pupils in her eyes IT SCARES ME. but gerard way looks like hes gonna cry and its kind of cute.

NAH.

so i didnt go to drum class. i got all dressed up and ready to go and then...

"I not gg drum today."

SHEEESH. NOW she tells me! then my mum said since jas isnt gg and since im kind of sick so i shudnt go. and i didnt bother to disagree because i didnt feel like going. going drum class alone BORES ME. especially since im the ONLY GIRL/FEMALE.

CHEEEEEEEE. im trying to play a game with joleen but the damn thing wont work. SO ANNOYING. haha.

Joleen reminds me of computer club. we shud have a freaking computer club reunion la! i miss those clowns. SIGH.

if i could, i would live SVA (the process, the awards, EVERYTHING) all over again.


baaaaaaaaaaaand practise! WHEN? WHERE? HOW?

HELLOOOOOOOO.

HAHA. i am AMUSED. by Fahrenheit AKA fei lun hai. yes isnt suprising that i listen to chinese music? WELL I DONT. haha. the speakers arent even on! im jus trying to see how the Jiro guy dances/sings cos i have been watching the 7pm show (its nice OKAY?) and hes damn funny la and its quite weird when i try to imagine him sing/dance/be all 5566/F4

well. its actually very very amusing. lala.


so its a sunday. im so happy i dont have school tomorrow. but IM SO SAD I DO HAVE NDP.


mAAAAAAAAAAAAN. i have to wakeup at 7am tmr. ARRRRRRRGH. annoying! and my school holidays are BUUUURNT. here's the schedule:

Monday
NDP: 7.30am to 1.30pm
Movie: I plan to catch a movie after NDP.... MUSIC AND LYRICS!

Tuesday
Fencing training: 12.30pm to 2.30pm

Wednesday
NDP: 7.30am to 1.30pm
Invite mel to my house: haha cos she wants to see my house -.-

Thursday
Fencing training: 12.30pm to 2.30pm

Friday
NDP: 7.30am to 1.30pm

NOW YOU TELL ME WHAT KIND OF HOLIDAY IS THAT? with ndp and fencing trainings. YEEEECH. pffffffffffffffft.

ah well. i gotta go for drums later then go to church. meantime i shall eat lunch/play neopets(haha its FUN OKAY?)/watch american dragon(WHAAAT. ITS NICE OKAY?). BUHBYE.

HELLO KIDDOOSS.

zingzagazoon, it's the late afternoon!

so it's a tuesday. and im not in school why? IM SICK. coughing all night. so two days; no school. yay. but its not like i have alot of time anyway. i woke up at 12pm.

have u seen the new patd video? Build God, Then We'll Talk. DONT SEE IT. i think they have some kind of sick mind thing going on. haha. the video's abt this girl. and his porn mime.

EEEYAACH. not for 14yr olds like me. anyway i watched 4 secs of it. then fast forwarded. then closed the thing.

its another one of those videos where patd arent seen playing.

bleagh. to tell u the truth im kind of sick of the whole circus thing.

but watever. im jus gonna spend the rest of my day doing ... nothing. maybe i shall call fellow sickling viv up? haha.

poodles to the toodles.

or was it the other way...

DOWN WITH A FLEW.

flu. haha

okay. so lets jump back to SATURDAY.

woke up at 5.50am. met viv. my mum sent us to the expo (my mum rocks la). me and viv got lost. me and viv found our way. sat there for 2 hours. then viv called Jarvitha or more like jarvitha called her. anyway they talked for awhile. 2 hours later i was running a fever. i tried to sleep. couldnt. viv called cleo. they talked for an hour. tried to sleep again. couldnt. viv tried to sleep. we were dead tired, dead bored, dead frustrated and damn pissed. cos like this group of girls came at 12pm and then they lined up infront of us cos they had a fren whos fren was infront of us. and that fren of theirs was lining up BEHIND us. like WTH. me and viv were damn pissed. so basically we suffered for 3 more hours.

so after lining for SEVEN DEADLY HOURS, jenn finally said she reached. i was damn pissed at her. haha. not really. i jus wanted her to COME QWICK. so finally she came. and jus seconds after jenn came, amanda tang came. and me and viv rushed off. and my mum came and fetched us home.

so i went home and took panadol and cough medicine and went to bed. at 5.30 pm or something i called jenn and she said there was a confusion when FOB came and the line went BLEAGH and it was all in a mess and she asked me to come quick. so i called viv and told her to meet me at 6pm. i was feeling MUCH better. then i went to shower and change and soon me and viv were headed to the expo thanks to my wonderful mom. again.

WHEN WE REACHED.... i saw isis. and apparently tt other person was her sister. anyway they both APPARANTLY HAD SPECIAL PASSES. i found out later it was jus normal tickets. sigh. wasted jenn's money. isis was all "WHY ARE U HERE" and i didnt understand wat she was saying. then i saw jenn and me and viv wanted to go to her but this man told us to go to the entrance. and i didnt know where the entrance was. and isis's sister was asking us weird questions. then i was like "WHRS THE ENTRANCE." then isis's sister showed us the entrance. and we went thru and there was like a huge crowd. me and viv tried to squeeze thru. but c0uldnt. finally..... like after 10min of fretting, i got damn pissed and walked outta the hall. then i walked out to the lineup place and i saw jenn and without thinking i RAN RAN RAN AND

JUMPED OVER THE BARRIER. then viv was like "AAAHHH HELP ME" then we pulled her over. haha. so I WAS HAPPY. cos i was with jenn and amanda and diana.

then after waiting we went in. we were like in the 5th row? then we were staring at an empty stage. me viv and jenn took pics of the stage. it was a pretty stage.

ppl started coming behind us. then PUSH PUSH PUSH SHOUT SHOUT SCREAM. more ppl stacked in and the behind ppl pushed infront, the infront ppl pushed behind the ppl at the side pushed and like we were screaming. then when alot of ppl came and the first opening band came to play (i didnt know WHO THE HECK THEY WERE.) ppl got super violent and the they jus PUSHED AND PUSHED.

it was BAAAAAAAAAAD. there was this part so bad that everyone behind me and viv fell and like we almost fell. jenn and diana and amanda got lost. then like viv started grabbing this angmoh's girl's hand. so since she was grabbing i thought "WHY NOT I GRAB TOO?" so i started grabbing ppls hands. finally the pushing subsided and i was back on my feet. viv wanted to cry i think. cos it was really really violent. plus her shoe came out and she lost her sock. yepp. she lost her sock. but then

SAW LOSER

came out. the pushing continued but the bouncers actually started to do SOMETHING. anyway SAW LOSER ROCKS. sam cooper, the bassist guy and masashi looks damn good in real life. haha. and they play real well. then at the end of Saw Loser's performance the pushing was like stopping and it was good. we waited half an hour until....

FALL OUT BOY

they finally came out. no wait at first there was this really weird RNB music and everyone was like "HUH?" then Dirty came out and i started laughing. I DUNNO WHY. dirty amuses me :D by the time i found out jenn and her frens had gone to the back cause they couldnt take it. anyway pete and andy and joe and patrick came out and i was hysterical. i was like "OMG" and viv was screaming her head off.

AND DAMN the concert was good! it was sad tt pete didnt throw the plectrum far inuf, I WANT IT. bianca got it! THE IDIOT! bleagh. im so jealous. i want! pete saw me i think. but i dont think he likes me cos he was smiling when he saw me then he stopped smiling and looked away.

BOOOOOO.

anyway they played songs like (NOT NESSECARILY IN ORDER. the first, second songs are in order but i cant rmb the rest) :

Our Lawyer Made Us Change the Name of This Song So We Wouldn't Get Sued
Of All the Gin Joints in All the World
Thriller
A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"
Some Take This to Your Grave song which i am ashamed to not to know the lyrics to
Nobody Puts Baby in the Corner
I Slept with Someone in Fall out Boy and All I Got Was This Stupid Shirt
This Ain't a Scene, It's an Arms Race
Grand Theft Autumn
The Take Over, The Breaks Over
Sugar we're going down
Some Take This to Your Grave song which i am ashamed to not to know the lyrics to

UM then Dirty comes out and he bites this can of beer and starts gg "DO U WAN MORE FALLOUTBOY?" and ppl chant "FALL OUT BOY FALL OUT BOY FALL OUT BOY FALL OUT BOY!" and fob comes out for an encore and before they play Pete looks at Dirty and laughs and goes "I'm crazy and drink beer!" and i start cracking up. then pete asks who was here to dance and everyone screamed. they played:

Dance, Dance
Saturday

then I see Pete's black bass (the one in the this ain't scene video in the hotel) FLY ACROSS THE STAGE. he lunges into the crowd and i cant see wat happened. and im like "WHAT HAPPENED. WHERES PETE." then i see him ontop of the crowd with his shirt ripped open.

so they finish the song and then they throw more plectrums and bottles and stuff. then they walk off. me and viv walk out, meet jenn and gang. i buy a coke, try to open, manage to open a hole before breaking the metal opening thing. getting frustrated, try to drink, squeeze the can so tt the coke comes out faster, end up breaking the can, coke spills out, i scream at jenn and viv (sorry) for tissue, get tissue, give remaining coke to viv, waves buhbye to amanda, diana and jenn.

then me and viv wait and i call isis. isis's sister picks us the fone and is all "WHO IS THIS?" and im like "bernadette la" cos i tot it was isis but it wasnt isis then isis's sister says "isis do u have a fren named bernadette." then i talk to isis. PFFT. so embarassing. then my dad fetches us home. THE END. all in all, it wasnt exactly worth 77bucks and 7hours of my saturday but it was a good concert.

FEW THINGS I'VE LEARNT:
1) Alot people who go to Fall Out Boy concerts have really heavy accents
2) they think they sing well
3) they are mostly angmohs (WHY?)
4) ppl who like FOB and curse F words can be nice tho.
5) Joe looks good, shaved or not.
6) Patrick is the cutest thing since giant teddy bears
7) Andy has sick tattoos! WHOO.
8) Being attacked by a girl behind u who is JUMPING JUMPIN infront and knocking into u is the most annoying crapp ever
9) getting hair into ur mouth while singing along to FOB is annoying too
10) Pete's abs are MUCH flatter in real life.
11) Fall Out Boy sounds damn good live

HELLLOO.

hello hello. it's a saturday. i can now say with full confidence that I KNOW SOMEONE WITH A BASS.

sirin, jazz bass, to be exact.

:D

OK. anyway. i said i wanted to elaborate on my last post. WAT HAPPENED WITH THE TEACHER WAS THAT....

me,helena,melissa: *walking in the school corridoor*
me: *hear's high heels. knows teacher is behind. doesnt bother to look back tho.*
teacher: excuse me, whrs ur name tag?
me: *knows she is talking to helena cos saw helena take out name tag an hour ago when we were in compass point. stops walking and turns back. sees helena and mrs susie lee."
helena: oh umum *reaches into pocket to take name tag.*
teacher: which class are u in?
helena: ERRRumumum 2..h...
teacher: why? scared to tell ur class isit?
me,helena,melissa: UMMM *walks v slowly*
teacher: *Walks faster then suddenly turns back* you probably don't even know my name right?
me: *puts hand up* I DO!
teacher: what?
me: umum GOOD MORNING.... ms lee..
teacher: good morning who?
me: um.. ms lee?
teacher: nooo! MRS LEE.
me: oops. sorry.

then the teacher goes on about how shes 100% gonna teach us later and mel and hel are stunned cos they thing by LATER she means later in the year but then she explains next year every sec3 has to lean social studies and she'll be teaching that. then she says that we shud not be her best fren. then she tells us to ask ppl from sec3 wat that means if we dont know. then she walks faster while me and my frens walk far behind her and finally she walks down the stairs and talks to this auntie while me and my frens rush past.

SO. ya. (sauce). it was pretty weird.

but watever. im gonna finish the story chap. becos im like halfway done i and I REALLY WANNA FINISH IT. cos it's a chap on jason and kaine's frenship. and i love love love writing conversations. haha.

PS. omgomgomgomg. falloutboy 7 days. i love love love them.
i want my earphone back.

last year's wishes are this year's apologies every last time i come home.

SUPERROBOTMONKEYTEAMHYPERFORCEGO!

I want to punch u. *punches* okay.

so wats the deal? I log into blogger and nothing happens. and i have to log in twice. think about my poor fingers.

nothing's more satisfying than finishing all ur weekend homework in 10mins in the morning. nothing kills the satisfaction more than the thought of stepping out of the house.
nothing decreases the de-satisfaction by a bit than the thought of the sweet sweet angpao.

i havent opened any yet, mind you. im gonna wait for a special moment where the thought of "im freakin rich" sinks in. or when im not too lazy. *yawn*

yesterday I went to jenn's house for band practise. band practise isn't band practise when it's not band practise with a band practising with bass, guitar and a drum set. all we had was a classical and an electrical guitar.

but we didn't throw ourselves off a building now, did we?

instead we sang while Joy played guitar (and dammit shes good) and tried to write a song. the singing worked, in a way. the writing failed. all we had was joy's spiffy guitar-melody-whatumightcallit-thing.

but we didn't slit our wrists, did we?

so i have come to the conclusion that Joy shall be lead guitar, I shall be rhthym and possibly vocals and Jennifer shall be the drummer without drums. let's use pails. anyway, with that said you guys should notice that


WE NEED A BASSIST.

Which means. the dream has to wait.

BUT I WILL CARRY ON!!! and not give up! and not get all depressed and start eating detergent. RIGHT-HANDED SALAD-BOWL SHALL PREVAIL. muaaaaahahhahahahaAAA.


nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhnah.

anyway in the meantime joy's gonna write songs. and so am i. hopefully by next band prac we got material to brag about.

i gotta do a lit poem. mrs ng says dont "DO LOVE" so i shall DO LIFE.

waaaaaaaaaaaasssup?

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR.

its the new year for the cheena ppl.

so tt means angpao and relative-visiting. and i had bad cramps this morning.

but watever. so while waiting for my bro im watching OKGO.

the cutest thing on treadmills.

i needa go to my ahgong's house now, BYEBYE.

I am 100% cotton.

ARGH. cant find the stupid science answers for the question. HOW TO STUDY LIDDAT. ok so maybe i jus wanna see how many ans i got correct...

OH. haha i found it! means i enrolled in the wrong thingy again. ahh.

ok. so talking to the twins. ahhh. miss talking to em. lala. school's pretty much a bummer. same old same old. somehow life gets so darn boring. bleagh.

today was valentines day. i dont celebrate it. so i didnt buy stuff but alot of ppl gave me stuff.ok maybe not to ppl ALOT. but to me its alot. sharmini gave me a chocolate with a heart saying : UR SINGING ROX. haha. shes damn sweet la. and then helena gave me sweets. and i dropped one. ack. then darrilyn gave me alot of fruit plus. too bad i cant eat fruit plus. clare gave me m&ms. gosh i love m&ms. and she had a lil card attached saying she hoped me and pete MET. haha. WHOO. and then darrilyn also gave me this small packet of exploding crystal sweet thing (yknw the one u put on the lollipop then u eat but this one no lollipop :( ) then i went home and ate it and spilled it and it was all over my neck and i had to sweep it off and i could hear popping sounds. haha.

so ya. tmr last common test. home econs and science. finally can relax after tt. gg to see old frens on sat... new band on monday.

love me love me long time. :D

FALLOUTBOYISHDAY.

so today was an okayokay day at school. besides the 20min long lecture abt the NDP dance thing. went to meet jenn. i felt VERY awkward at compass point waiting for the train. then went to potong pasir. stupid green bean head wasnt there! so had to wait. felt VERY awkward again. finally she came. took train to ps. went to find the directory. ended up finding the reception counter. ended up finding out the reception counter was ALSO the Sistic Ticket booth.

2 in 1 huh?

so then this lady went to com and like switched it on. and then she asked this younger lady something. and the younger lady was like "WAIT LAH!" so rudely. feel like slapping her. then the lady helped us do stuff... then we had to create an account and so i asked jenn to use her IC (i think she'll be the one watching future shows, not me). ya. and then we had to count and recount and count the money. tt took like 10min. VERY messy.

finally we got our tix and jenn screamed abit. haha the lady stared at us. we put our tix in little holder things. off we went to the cd shop.

went to sembawang. dun have. i told jenn to not bother to ask the counter. went to MJ. we were disappointed when we looked at the new arrivals. then jenn was like "let's go..." then i saw something....


DING DONG. sheep, bed, crow, pumpkins, cricket. all there. my pretty pete was in the back.

yay. so like i spent 174 bucks total. pfft.

went to carls jr. jenn ordered onion rings and i walked and got tako yaki. then i stood at the corner and ate. cos u cant bring other food mah. scared the person scold me.

SO YA.

sauce. HAHA.

nehneh. jenn was real late for her tuition. so she took tt mrt and i took another one. and i stopped at the mrt station.

AND GUESS WAT. i walked home! and i almost got lost. and i was freaked out so i smsed viv (tho i knew she wasnt gg to reply cos she was dancing ballet) and then i called my dad. and he told me directions. and like i didnt understand. and he asked me to take bus. but i dowan. so i walked. and walked. and walked. and

WHOOO. finally. reached. then i saw cleo's dad. scared me a bit. he didnt recognize me! yay. so then i walked. and i was prepared to say "HOORAY I'VE REACHED" to whoever opened the door. but i didnt. dunno why.

ya. so im safe. and i feel so CLEAN. showers can work wonders.

ok so yes. this was my day. i hope u all are jealous now. HAHA.

here's a little quote from this afternoon's school assembly tt made me want to cry. its by a 5 yr old boy or something. talking abt love.

Love is when... God didn't say magic words to make the nails come out... and instead died for us.

OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT. dammit i cant rmb. ARGH.

I LOVE IT WHEN U CALL
I LOVE IT WHEN U CALL
I LOVE IT WHEN U CALL
BUT U NEVER CALL AT ALL
SO WHATS THE COMPLICATION
IT'S ONLY COVERSATION
I LOVE IT WHEN U CALL
BUT U NEVER CALL AT ALL

AH AH AH.

AHHH.


FALL OUT BOY.

o, FALLOUTBOY.

how i wish i could see u guys.
sigh.

SIGH.

this might not work out dearies. if u dont go with me to the concert. i NEED PPL TO GO WITH ME.

ESPECIALLY VIVECKA NAIIIRRR.

argh. sick. car sick. bleagh. spending ur afternoon at HEALTH PROMOTION BOARD is not nice.

FALLOUTBOOOOY.

FALLOUTBOY.

FALLOUTBOY.

FALLOUTBOY IS COMING TO SINGAPORE.

I LOVE U BENITA LOW. THANK U FOR SHARING THAT WONDERFUL INFORMATION.

on 3rd march! viv says that it's a saturday... i say...

WOOHOOODEHOOHOO.

it's times like this im so darn happy i've been saving up. THANK YOU PIGGYBANK.

woooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooh.

today is SUCH AN INTERESTING DAY. FIRST THE YOSHINOYA. THEN THE EXPLODING TOILET BOWL. THEN THIS.

i love God. THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH.

*runs and screams hysterically*

HAAAAAAAAAAH.

HAHA. i amuse myself with my amusing ness.

GUESS WAT? amanda DID see my apolegy cos she wrote this in her blog:

i apologise for this post, and that one line of lyric.
"but thats all i apolegize for. nothing more."

and it took me awhile to get it. at first i tot she was still pissed. and then i tot she was pissed cos i said "but that's all i apologize" blabla crapp. so i went to reread my sorry post and GUESS WAT. i wasnt very apologetic. so i wanted to say sorry more. THAN I WROTE THIS POST. AND PASTED TT PART FROM AMANDA'S BLOG. AND.... NOW. i understand.

ok. so the thing is i dunno if shes still pissed. but she APOLEGIZED. whoo. WHOO. whoo. WHOO. whoo WHOO. whoo WHOO.

and she said
let me leave with my heart and the weights
but what she didn't know
what she didn't know.

sometimes things don't go her way.
and no matter how many times
you utter that line
shes not gonna say,
shes not gonna say.

I AM BORED.

im bored. GACK. wish tyra had benji and don and heidi on the show alittle LONGER. blah.

stupid mosquito bites are swelling up. freaky! and the mosquito was SOO following me around.

right. no ones online... joy is busy... kelicia is gone...

AH JENN. hello jenn.

damn. shes not answering. OH SHE IS. haha. hahahaaaaaaaaa.

ok. im gonna talk to her!whoo.

ok. so i have an announcement to make.

THE FEUD BETWEEN ME AND AMANDA HAS ENDED. WOOHOO.

at least on MY side. see since i SUPPOSEDLY STARTED IT cos i insulted Tom (i was serious abt it but she took it seriously so im to blame i guess :/) AND THE ONLY WAY TO END. IS TO WELL. APOLEGIZE. so then i apolegized. and she either didnt see or ignored it so i havent got any answer. BUT THE POINT IS I APOLEGIZED. which means that i am no longer fighting with her. she might still be kicking my ass but i wouldnt notice. and i wont fight back.

THERE.

and i seriously want to say SORRY a big big SORRY to all the ppl i dragged along with. im so sorry. i didnt mean it. sometimes i can be so mean.

so i wanna say sorry to

CLEO.
KELICIA.
JENNIFER.
ISIS.
UM SORT OF BENITA (cos she was boo sucked at)

whoo. im weezing. stupid peanuts. PEANUTS ROCK. shuttup.

and a SPECIAL SORRY TO JASMIN ANG SHU YI.

cos u were in the worse position EVER.
im so so sorry. i guess i shudve fought the battle myself huh? but i would never have ended without my FWENS. MY DEAR FWENS. especially cleo who said a very nice thing to me ystr.

CLEO. I LUBBXX EUUXX WORHHXXX. as a fren.
I CANT BELIEVE WE'VE KNOWN EACH OTHER SINCE PRI 1! like we've had little retarded fights but not like a BIG ONE where i ignore u for 1 whole year or something.

that's just. cool.

and thanks to mark huppos who will never know i thanked him. thanks to plus 44. FOR THE NICE ALBUM. AND ALL THE SONGS. tat i could relate to. u helped me pull thru. ESPECIALLY CHAPTER 13. whoo.

haaaaah. yknw wat? i think viv and i shud have That 70s Show theme song as OUR theme song.

HANGING OUT. WALKING DOWN THE STREET. SAME OLD THING. THAT WE DID LAST WEEK. AND NOT A THING TO DO. BUT TALK TO YOU. WE'RE ALL ALRIGHT. WE'RE ALL ALRIGHT.

whoo. YEA.

so school days. homework. teachers. getting freaked out at dirtyness. being really uncomfortable around people. singing with jasmin. laughing with melissa, helena. hanging out with clare, corrine, jas, cheryl, helena, melissa and joey.

NO MID YEARS. but got common test coming soon. DANG. alright fine jenn, DAMN. haha. jenn amuses me with her emo posts.

:D

nananananana. i miss listening to breaking benjamin and maroon 5. so i kind of listened to them again. and i miss the old music. so im starting to listen to all the old stuff. like blink. and sum 41. and maybe a dash of goodcharlotte.

LIFE IS SO-SO.

today's weather is FAAAAHHHHNN doncha think?

i embarassed myself -get this- AT HEALTH SCREENING TODAY. how u may ask? yknw the curtain thingy whr u go behind and check ur spine and stuff? when i was coming out i tripped on one of the wheel legs thing. then the whole thing almost collapse and i came out and the nurse was like "OH!" then she started laughing and everyone started laughing and i started laughing and it was kind of funny.

haha.

homeecons today. made salad. and threw it away.

Do ppl even read these titles?

OHMYGOSH.

MYGOSHGOSH.


NO MID YEAR EXAMS.

*squeals* THATS RIGHT ALL U NON SEC2/3 FROM SJC KIDDOS. HAHAHAHAHA. IVE GOT NO MID YEARS AND YOU DOOO!!

so do.

HAH.

haha. loong story. cos of national day parade thingy. no im not gonna dance in those poofy dresses okay? im not. so good luck to me to try and dance badly but not too fake so that the teacher/personperson gets all mad. or something..

mm.

today RE lesson. we did this thing where we passed a paper around. and u had to like write abt this person's good and bad.
guess wat my paper was filled with?

"FUNNY FUNNY GIRL :]
funny!
funny!
funny but a little weird sometimes...
funny person!
weird...
funny!
funny!
too loud.
FUNNY!"

SOMETHING LIKE THAT. there were like alot of "funny"s and three "weird"s and one "too loud".

i was expecting something like "sometimes abit selfish." or "unfriendly."

BUT WATEVER. they said i was FUNNY! im so happy. ok and then i gotta take note of the TOO LOUD. cos ive been told im too loud. and im trying to cut down on my talking. so yea. then theres also the thing abt me being weird. the thing is. i have kind of been been being weird. like i would make a joke and if ppl dont laugh i would laugh and stop laughing and be all serious.

biopolar disorder?

Can you come and make them disappear?

KELICIA MY DEAR FRIEND AND BANANA PERSON....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

yes im ashamed to say i ALMOST FORGOT. but i know now! thanks to friendster....

BUT WATEVER. i still lubbxx euxxx woorrhhxx.

AH ah AH ah cant do it.

soo.. wassup today? nothing much. chatting with jas and joy. its amazing how many frens i have whos name starts with "J"
haaaaaaaaaaaa.

and viv continues to INSPIRE. INSPIRE! *throws confetti*

and so is cleo. and her holiness. haha. i shud start quoting from the bible and stuff.

YKNW WAT? I SHUD JUS START READING IT.

haha. see this is how horrid i am. ahhh well. ive been waiting all day long to use the com. and i wanted to blog about something. BUT IVE FORGOTTEN.

sadly. argh. its times like this u feel damn restrained. gack. gack. gecko.

lala. im gonna finish off chapter 5. and find something fun to do. DAMN U FORGETFUL MIND.

i think i am a fish... swimming in the see. lala.

im hungry.

And you saved me from myself.

And I won't forget the way you loved me.
On the way down I almost fell right through.
But I held on to you.

Ryan Cabrera (spelling?) just sticks to ur head. haha. i love his hair la. anyway. wassup dudes?

OH.WANNA KNOW SOMETHING?

nothing is scarier then being in ur house. and u look out and down. and u see a bunch of school girls laughing cos they're doing this thing where this girl goes "BYE" and the rest wanna be cheeky and repeat "BYE" together. then u watch them, hoping u arent visible from below. then the walk and do the "BYE" thing and they suddenly stop and start saying "BYE" repeatedly to the CARS ON THE ROAD. or something. and u're wondering who the heck they are saying bye to cos they're facing the road. then this girl waves. and suddenly due to ur lack of ability to see very far, u are frightened by the fact that she might be being cheeky waving to u.

that's just. very scary.

haha. but i doubt she was. maybe she was waving to her fren who was on the other side of the road/neighbour hu lives below me.

right. sooo. yesterday of fencing was crappy. i cramped up my muscle reaaallll bad. and almost cried. like i was yelling "WAH SHIT SHIT SHIT WAH PAIN MAN" and i fell to the floor and DUH DUH DUH DUH DUH DUH! the coach came and kind of pushed my foot back and asked me to relax my leg. and then the muscle went all normal again. but i cant walk properly.

(there go my dancing dreams)

i thanked the coach tho. was like "hey i need to thank you. so... thank you."
then he was like "mus meh?"
then i said "yar! u want a hug?"
and he said "no."

haha. :D also wat made the fencing crappy was this senior. her name is siviltra. and shes super evil to all the sec 2s. i think she finds me- NO WAIT- i KNOW she finds me annoying. like that time i was joking with mel and helena and we were laughing like crazy and she jus come out of no where and goes "SHUTTUP. U GUYS ARENT EVEN FUNNY."

and we were all shocked. cos it was really weird. we werent even talking to her. and i think all the sec 2s were pretty pissed.

UNLIKE HER...this SUPER NICE senior, which i shall threat nicely from now on, came to my side when i cramped up my leg and asked how i was.

ooooo. esther! i owe u one.

Jester's always the crowd favorite.
Barely the personal love.

WOOO. jasmin actually listened to me, LISTENED TO ME, and went to watch this vid by Sum 41.

PPL WHO LISTEN TO ME ARE COOL OKAY. haha. sigh. im so pathetic.

She talks in poetry; Speak with Love.

WHEEOHWHEE.

okay. im BACK.

IM BACK. IM BACK. IM BACK FROM THE CAMP.

and it was...

DIRTY MOSQUITOY FUNNY SCARY SQUEEZY PAINFUL SMELLY OKAY LA.

and i have homework to do that i didnt do on tuesday.

ANYWAY. back to the camping ness. i think the best part of all was all the male intructors. THEY ARE SO FUNNY. FUNNY PEOPLE ARE FUNNY.

and they were truly funny.

:D

i like the campfire on thurday night (2nd day). IT WAS DAMN FUN. what happened was that it was raining. so we had to go to the hall. then there was no campfire la. so then we just sat around. Intructor Care Bear (his real name is ahmad or something. I DUNNO.) was the main emcee. FUNNY GUY LA HE. haha. he made all of us laugh throughout the campfire. so then we didnt have fire. so he and this other guy instructor (Eliss? i dunno how to spell.) came up with other ideas:

- Eliss took out his lighter and threatened to burn Care Bear. we were all shouting : BURN THE BEAR!!! BURN THE BEAR!!!
- Eliss held up his lighter (with it's tiny flame) and claimed that it was the campfire.
- Care Bear asked two female intructors to be the fire. they were the fire for like 10 secs then couldnt stop laughing so went away.

HAH. okay. then each class did their performance. i dont think all were interestingly interesting (viv's class one was nice tho, VERY FUNNY. GO VIV!). BUT. i like when the intructors performed. like when they sang and danced and stuff. and everyone loves the bumble bee song. cos of Eliss. cos everytime we go to the "MUMMY MUMMY COME AND SEE" part he starts doing this very funny action and we're alll like screaming and whoo-ing. and then he would also do his Eliss-clap which we all learned how to do (i shall show u one day).

then the funniest part was when Camp Cheif Zack did his performance. the "Bomchabom bomchabom bomchawakachikawakachikabom." one.

i laughed until i cried.

couldn't stop laughing. sigh. it's been a long time since I've laughed that hard :)
so basically the campfire bit was very entertaining.
they were other activities on like the 1st day and the 2nd day. like rockclimbing (which i didnt do cos i didnt wanna be the first few so there was no time for me and other people) and low ropes and walking around ubin(this was just damn tiring) and walking around ubin at night (that was the scariest) and getting scolding and showering with clothes on and 3 other people (worse shower ever had.)

the milo was good. food was okay la. intructors were funny. but im back.

CIVILISATION.

my mum didnt tape Ellen and the 70s Show for me. ONLY PRISON BREAK. ARGH. so sad. i was looking forward to watching. arghness.
im gonna watch Ellen soon.

anyway. me and jas were emotionally unstable after the campfire. when we were all seated in the hall and drinking hot milo at like 11pm. and we were tired. jas told me she was emotionally unstable. and then i realised so was i. and then when we were sleeping in our sleeping bags. and i turned to my right to talk to jas. and i told her that when i was emotionally unstable i started crushing on the Eliss guy. YARRR. so dont tell anyone k?

OKAY. i shall do chapter 3. yes. WILL U PPL COME ONLINE. i wanna talk. bleagh. okay. THANK YOU FOR READING.

I AM BACK, MY BELOVED TOILET BOWL.