do you know why i'm so bad at being a friend
because the better I got at being myself
the more i fell out of place
with everyone else.
this is blog
Wednesday, May 06, 2015
Sunday, October 13, 2013
maybe
if i could
i would dedicate my entire life to music. because it always is everything, and always has been.
and may it always.
i would dedicate my entire life to music. because it always is everything, and always has been.
and may it always.
Monday, September 09, 2013
how the long distance thing works for me
once i say goodnight to you
i wait the whole day for you to wake up
i wait the whole day for you to wake up
Sunday, April 28, 2013
well this is a suprise
it's been so long since i've been so happy!
and i have an exam paper tomorrow D:
but whatever, i'm actually pretty excited about life again. i missed the feeling! aww so bittersweet.
and all it took was some planning for future activities and saying yes to stuff and taking little risks with the humans and cat i love.
and of course, praying. because i prayed so hard that night and it all became better in an hour and that's really pretty darn amazing
and i have an exam paper tomorrow D:
but whatever, i'm actually pretty excited about life again. i missed the feeling! aww so bittersweet.
and all it took was some planning for future activities and saying yes to stuff and taking little risks with the humans and cat i love.
and of course, praying. because i prayed so hard that night and it all became better in an hour and that's really pretty darn amazing
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
#2
we always dream. but dreams are the furthest things from the true future and yet the closest things to our hearts. there are the lucky, but you're either very fortunate or very selfless. how long have i been depressed? as long as reality's been around and been the only way out. which sounds bad. but maybe i'll get over it. maybe i'll stop being such a wusd and just shut up and get the job done.
Monday, April 15, 2013
prelude
Here it is
The last of our kind. Ambition. Motivation.
I am the one that will walk the streets, with a briefcase in hand and a cellphone pressed to my ear. Devices galore clipped over me, hidden in my jacket. I will flag cabs and take buses and drive cars and move and move and move all around the town, seeking, talking, working.
And all whilst i feel an awful sense of accomplishment. All whilst everything I've learnt in more than a decade trapped in the education system comes to life infront of everyone's eyes. This is what I was born to do.
And that will be the last of us.
There is a generation that will live life not knowing what, where, how, why? They will question and question until their minds bend and their hearts sink and the people around them will worry and eventually give up.
And still, those lost people remain lost. And sad. And nothing, along with everything, means nothing.
Endless, senseless
get me out get me out.
The last of our kind. Ambition. Motivation.
I am the one that will walk the streets, with a briefcase in hand and a cellphone pressed to my ear. Devices galore clipped over me, hidden in my jacket. I will flag cabs and take buses and drive cars and move and move and move all around the town, seeking, talking, working.
And all whilst i feel an awful sense of accomplishment. All whilst everything I've learnt in more than a decade trapped in the education system comes to life infront of everyone's eyes. This is what I was born to do.
And that will be the last of us.
There is a generation that will live life not knowing what, where, how, why? They will question and question until their minds bend and their hearts sink and the people around them will worry and eventually give up.
And still, those lost people remain lost. And sad. And nothing, along with everything, means nothing.
Endless, senseless
get me out get me out.
Sunday, March 10, 2013
Friday, February 22, 2013
dreams.
i want that life where you're stuck in a dream and you know reality is there but you're just like "hey sorry man, not today alright?"
and everything looks gorgeous and every song you hear goes straight down to your bones. and the feelings you feel are beautiful because the world is as it is, and the people can be relied on to always be there and to keep you smiling and to remind you that you exist.
i want that feeling of a dream.
i want to dream.
because regardless of where you're stuck in or what assignments you have to accomplish it all doesn't matter and everything is going to be okay.
and i want you in that dream but you're so far away.
and everything looks gorgeous and every song you hear goes straight down to your bones. and the feelings you feel are beautiful because the world is as it is, and the people can be relied on to always be there and to keep you smiling and to remind you that you exist.
i want that feeling of a dream.
i want to dream.
because regardless of where you're stuck in or what assignments you have to accomplish it all doesn't matter and everything is going to be okay.
and i want you in that dream but you're so far away.
Saturday, January 26, 2013
if i consider everything you've done, i regret any thought that goes along the line of you not being the right person for me. you are perfect. you were made for me. to guide me, to protect me.
and sometimes i get annoyed at that, but we should never take such people for granted. those that look out for us more than they even care about themselves.
i don't know what else to say. i love you.
and sometimes i get annoyed at that, but we should never take such people for granted. those that look out for us more than they even care about themselves.
i don't know what else to say. i love you.
Friday, January 11, 2013
what i want
i have no idea what i want in life
and i think everyone expects me to know, quick! because it'll make life easier for everyone including myself.
but i don't know what i want
i don't know what i want to do for the rest of my life, what i want to study, what job to get, what type of stuff i even enjoy
i don't know what my cat wants she's just lying there but she keeps meowing so she wants to play but she keeps running off. lazy cat.
i don't know what course to take, i think it's because im so sheltered, i never bothered to venture and experience so i don't know what my options are and what i enjoy or what i'm good at. but it's not like i don't try? or maybe i don't.
i don't know.
i sound so awful
and i think everyone expects me to know, quick! because it'll make life easier for everyone including myself.
but i don't know what i want
i don't know what i want to do for the rest of my life, what i want to study, what job to get, what type of stuff i even enjoy
i don't know what my cat wants she's just lying there but she keeps meowing so she wants to play but she keeps running off. lazy cat.
i don't know what course to take, i think it's because im so sheltered, i never bothered to venture and experience so i don't know what my options are and what i enjoy or what i'm good at. but it's not like i don't try? or maybe i don't.
i don't know.
i sound so awful
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